The greatest thing youll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.

You're my dream come true, My one, and only you.. (-The Platters - "Only You")

Love is my reason to wake up in the morning.. To carry on.. its my reason to be. Love love love, ahh what it is to love.. to be loved.. such a beautiful thing.. 

You know, I truly believe love is one of the greatest things that humans are capable of.  Love is a gift, an innocent, pure, miraculous gift.  Its one of those things that sets us apart from everything else.  We have the capability of emotions and to love others so deeply..  Love is a beautiful thing.  It's hard to fully understand it even until you are able to experience true love (which I do believe exists for everyone). 

When it's love, you'll know it.  You'll get that feeling deep in the pit of your stomach.. The butterflies when he looks at you that special way, or the way he touches your cheek.  You can always hear it in the way they speak to you.  Any guy who thinks you look cute in pajamas with your make up all over your face and your hair a mess first thing in the morning and still thinks you look beautiful.. That, my friend, is a man in love.

The one person that makes you swoon, that 'oo lala' love, the one that would give you the moon, the stars, and the sky if he could.  He would do anything just to see a smile on your face.  And she would be there for him at any time, day or night.  She would listen to him and encourage him, always supportive of his decisions.

You know it's love.  Love inspires.  Love is beauty.  Love is the farthest and closest thing to perfection any one in this world will ever have.  Love should be crazy and wild and out of this world! playful, fabulous, wonderful love.. ahhh!!.. 

Tricky tricky though love can be.  Sneaks up on you when you least expect it.. Can never find it when you look for it.  So everyone stop your searching!  It is probably right under your nose.. So sly, that thing called love..

Love should be fun and full of laughter and ridiculous moments.  Without the moments of ridiculousness and all of those memories.. what would be left?  Not every love has to be your fairy tale romance or even a movie/book romance.. Each love blossoms into something truly unique and beautiful every time.. And that's the best part about love.  It's different for every couple, shaped to their qualities and quirks.

Love is total acceptance of another being into your heart and trusting them with everything you hold dear.  Its an all night conversation.  It's more than a feeling.  It's a first everything.  It's a lesson in life.. a "goodnight" kiss.  It's a see you later, no more goodbyes. Love is what we make it, precious, lustful, beautiful, blossoming, forever-changing.. It's the bliss you feel when you see that special person smile at you, knowing that they are all yours always, and there is no one who can take that away from you.  It's wondering How did I ever get so lucky?  There are no words to describe... It's like leaping over the moon.. its a constant celebration..

People forget too often the beauty of life and get too bogged down by the demands of life.  Sometimes, we all just need to take a step back, take a deep breath, and remember how lucky we are and how wonderful life can be.. especially when you are lucky enough to have your prince charming to share it with. 

Go ahead and call me a sap if you want, and maybe I am.  But when you find that one special person, the one you know is your soul mate.. the one you could spend forever with .. you'll understand what I'm talking about.  You will all agree with me one day.... :-)

Love is Heaven on Earth.

tell it like you still believe that the end of the century brings a change for you and me

"I see you there, don't know where you come from...."

-The Fray, "Say When"

Music, music music...

The beauty of a great song that can catch your mood and sway with you.  The perfect song to make you feel just right.  Nothing beats this feeling, nothing in the world..  There is a song for every mood, written just for you if you know where to look.

The Soundtrack of our lives is always changing.  Our tastes are always changing.  We are always changing.  Nothing stays the same forever.  We grow, we learn, we love, we shape, we form, we restructure everything we know to represent the world surrounding us.  We give, we break, we cry, we crash.  And music helps us through it all.  Music, the passion of another to ease the transition, to ease the break.  Music to soothe my soul in the depths of night when no one is around and you just want a shoulder to cry on.

Music to celebrate, music to grieve... It's what we need.  It's what I breathe.  I have my breaks and times when I dont listen as much, but I always come back and it is always there for me when I need it most.  it completes me and heals me.

The power of music.  The strength of another voice saying "it's all going to be okay now, my sweet love" in so many words, or only few.  Simply sway me, rock me to sleep, my beautiful lullaby.. My sweet, sweet dreams.  My handsome prince.  My inspiration.

Music never fails me.  Never Never Never, oh my passion.  Don't you love how the perfect song at the perfect moment can make your heart so warm inside and bring about so many different emotions, always changing?  It's beautiful.  Those who kno, who understand music, know that this is what makes good music.  The ability for your listeners to relate, to feel, to understand; to unite music with the heart.

Revamping, Remodeling, Reviving. & a "Thanks" to, my 5. or 8. but whos counting?

Revamping my blog space.

In light of recent new additional blog friends, I have decided that I have seriously lacked in my writing for quite some time now.  To cure this fact, I have decided to re-establish my blog and try to do something more thoughtful and less, well, journal-esque from time to time.  Although I love sharing the details of my life, my goal is to pick a topic and delve into it a little bit each week, and try to give you all an insight into that thing they call a brain that is stored inside my head.  I know, funny right?  Who would ever thought there would be a reason to use it!

Remodeling, as in CHECK OUT MY SWEET DIGGS!! yes, diggs with two g's because that second g just makes it that damn important.

Reviving.

We all need to revive ourselves once in awhile, wouldn't you say?  From traumatic experiences, from a long week at work, a stressful night at school.. We all need to revive our souls and have the fun we have missed out on or have forgotten about in the rushes of every day life.  We are all so busy we often forget to have fun!

My goal is to re-awaken my soul to a world of literature and bring back my great passion for writing for no one but myself.  And that is what I intend to do here.  I hope you all join me on my ventures to discover what it is to truly live.. What an adventure!!  Something my life has been lacking, but oh the plans I will make!


In light of my first entry and readmittance into the love of literature, I am going to revive my blog with this entry in relation to one of my favorite books, The Five People You Meet in Heaven.

Granted, I may have more than 5, so bare with me if you are interested!

Jenny Robertson, my first best friend.  We have known each other since we were 5 years old when we met in Mrs. Tait's Kindergarten class.  We stayed friends because we both cried so hard when jenny was moving in first grade that our parents agreed to make sure we stayed in contact.  We are still friends to this day.  Although we may not be as close as we have been in the past, she means more to me than anything.  She knows me so well, and we have some of the most fondest memories I have the pleasure of holding.  She is my sister, my best friend, my other half.  I would not be the person I am today without her.   Although we have gone our separate ways, no matter what happens between us, she is the one person I know I can always look to if I needed someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on.  She would be there in a heart beat and I know she will always be there for me, as I would do the same for her.

Granted this is kind of my "crew" back from wentworth, they had some of the strongest impacts on my life as it was kind of a crucial age when we were all friends. All going through changes, all learning who we are, all just trying to find a spot we fit in... A spot we found with Eachother.   Kiyonah, Erica, and Katie were my best friends for so long.  Between starting bands, many many firsts with all of the, writing songs, laughing too loud, staying up too late, making up dances, talking for hours on end every night, and many other things... They have filled my life with wonderful memories.  They helped me learn to trust my friends and that it was okay to let go every once in a while.  Fun was the best thing and most important thing with these girls, and I will always love them for that.  They will always hold a special place in my heart (or for kiyonah, in a certain birthday music video from 6th grade featuring us and lindsey singing lady marmalade which I need to find and burn, by the way).  Even though most of us have gone our separate ways, Kiyonah and I have had several down points and always find our way back to each other because we have learned the true meaning of friendship; it is truly something so hard to find and I am glad that we have been able to restore something that is just so precious.

Lindsey Jean and Sandy... My saviors.  Without these two wonderful women in my life, I would definitely not be the person I am today.  I may not even be here today if it weren't for them and I will forever owe my life to them and will always owe them my gratitude.  They saved me from my own demons and showed me that I am beautiful, loved, and special; regardless of what others try to say about me or make me believe.  They will always hold a special place in my heart, and I will love them forever.  I hope that they will always be in my lives because they have both always encouraged me in everything I do and have been some of the few people to never lose faith in me, who always believed in me.  I'm not sure how, but some day i swear I will repay them both for everything they have done for me.  I love them like my own family.

My love, Brett.  The one who makes me experience every kind of emotion possible.  The one who brings the most joy into my life and makes me realize I am beautiful from the inside out and always will be.  He taught me love, loyalty, trust, and the key to healthy relationships.  He taught me about myself and made me realize it is okay to care about myself and others too, I cant always put others before myself.  He showed me the true meaning of love and what it means to have a best friend you can tell everything to.  He made me love myself and helped me learn who I am as a person... Or is helping me learn..  We both have helped each other in unimaginable ways that neither of us ever saw ourselves doing.. We made the impossible a reality for each other.

And of course, there are new friends who you find along the way that make you wonder how you ever survived without them, like all of a sudden an empty hole or a void in your heart was just suddenly filled by a kindred spirit.  Chelsea, my oh so wonderful step brother, has made me realize that you can trust people quickly; sometimes you can just tell when it is meant to be.  Sometimes you can just spot a friendship long overdue when you constantly find yourself telling each other "get out of my head!" or "no i thought that first!"  It's not easy to make new friends after high school, and she made me entirely forget that and has made em wonder how, being so so similar and alike, how we pulled it off.  She is one of the most amazing peope I have ever met and I hope we will be in each other's lives for years to come.  She is one of those people that are extremely hard to come by, and most people are never blessed enough to get to meet a special person like her.  I consider myself very lucky to be able to call her my friend, my step brother, my kindred spirit, my where-have-you-been-all-my-life friend.

These people or just a few of the so very important people to me.  I have been blessed with knowing some of the most amazing people.  I will love and cherish you always, no matter what becomes of us in the future.

take a minute to think about the people that are important to you.  It's amazing how often we take these people for granted and fail to realize that these people may not always be in our lives.  They will always leave an impact, and the depth of that impact is on your shoulders.. Make it Count.

Hey Maine, when did you stop disliking snow so much?

So I made the Dean's list for the Fall 2009 semester, I am SO happy and really proud of myself.  This is my first time being on the Dean's list so it is super exciting for me... I put in a lot of hard work last semester to get to this point and I am crossing my fingers that I can manage to pull it off again this semester!!

On January 16th, Brett and I celebrated our 3 year anniversary, it was wonderful.  I love him :-)

In other news, walter's has been super busy.  I have been super busy with school.  Aurora had her shower last week and is due in a couple weeks, Little Miss Autumn Rose!!! I can not wait to meet her!!!!  I am so very happy for her and her fiance Tim :-) they are super cute together and he is a great guy!

This semester is love because I can work any morning before class and I only have classes Monday-Wednesday, and then 2 online classes as well.  It is a lot of work but this semester is flying by.  I am already on my first break, INSANE isn't it?!  just love it, its just great!

Valentine's day is on Sunday, that should be fun i hope!  We dont really have any plans except for dinner at walters, so we will see what goes on.

Too much to do, ill try to catch up more later, hope everyone else is doing well!! :-)