Revamping, Remodeling, Reviving. & a "Thanks" to, my 5. or 8. but whos counting?

Revamping my blog space.

In light of recent new additional blog friends, I have decided that I have seriously lacked in my writing for quite some time now.  To cure this fact, I have decided to re-establish my blog and try to do something more thoughtful and less, well, journal-esque from time to time.  Although I love sharing the details of my life, my goal is to pick a topic and delve into it a little bit each week, and try to give you all an insight into that thing they call a brain that is stored inside my head.  I know, funny right?  Who would ever thought there would be a reason to use it!

Remodeling, as in CHECK OUT MY SWEET DIGGS!! yes, diggs with two g's because that second g just makes it that damn important.

Reviving.

We all need to revive ourselves once in awhile, wouldn't you say?  From traumatic experiences, from a long week at work, a stressful night at school.. We all need to revive our souls and have the fun we have missed out on or have forgotten about in the rushes of every day life.  We are all so busy we often forget to have fun!

My goal is to re-awaken my soul to a world of literature and bring back my great passion for writing for no one but myself.  And that is what I intend to do here.  I hope you all join me on my ventures to discover what it is to truly live.. What an adventure!!  Something my life has been lacking, but oh the plans I will make!


In light of my first entry and readmittance into the love of literature, I am going to revive my blog with this entry in relation to one of my favorite books, The Five People You Meet in Heaven.

Granted, I may have more than 5, so bare with me if you are interested!

Jenny Robertson, my first best friend.  We have known each other since we were 5 years old when we met in Mrs. Tait's Kindergarten class.  We stayed friends because we both cried so hard when jenny was moving in first grade that our parents agreed to make sure we stayed in contact.  We are still friends to this day.  Although we may not be as close as we have been in the past, she means more to me than anything.  She knows me so well, and we have some of the most fondest memories I have the pleasure of holding.  She is my sister, my best friend, my other half.  I would not be the person I am today without her.   Although we have gone our separate ways, no matter what happens between us, she is the one person I know I can always look to if I needed someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on.  She would be there in a heart beat and I know she will always be there for me, as I would do the same for her.

Granted this is kind of my "crew" back from wentworth, they had some of the strongest impacts on my life as it was kind of a crucial age when we were all friends. All going through changes, all learning who we are, all just trying to find a spot we fit in... A spot we found with Eachother.   Kiyonah, Erica, and Katie were my best friends for so long.  Between starting bands, many many firsts with all of the, writing songs, laughing too loud, staying up too late, making up dances, talking for hours on end every night, and many other things... They have filled my life with wonderful memories.  They helped me learn to trust my friends and that it was okay to let go every once in a while.  Fun was the best thing and most important thing with these girls, and I will always love them for that.  They will always hold a special place in my heart (or for kiyonah, in a certain birthday music video from 6th grade featuring us and lindsey singing lady marmalade which I need to find and burn, by the way).  Even though most of us have gone our separate ways, Kiyonah and I have had several down points and always find our way back to each other because we have learned the true meaning of friendship; it is truly something so hard to find and I am glad that we have been able to restore something that is just so precious.

Lindsey Jean and Sandy... My saviors.  Without these two wonderful women in my life, I would definitely not be the person I am today.  I may not even be here today if it weren't for them and I will forever owe my life to them and will always owe them my gratitude.  They saved me from my own demons and showed me that I am beautiful, loved, and special; regardless of what others try to say about me or make me believe.  They will always hold a special place in my heart, and I will love them forever.  I hope that they will always be in my lives because they have both always encouraged me in everything I do and have been some of the few people to never lose faith in me, who always believed in me.  I'm not sure how, but some day i swear I will repay them both for everything they have done for me.  I love them like my own family.

My love, Brett.  The one who makes me experience every kind of emotion possible.  The one who brings the most joy into my life and makes me realize I am beautiful from the inside out and always will be.  He taught me love, loyalty, trust, and the key to healthy relationships.  He taught me about myself and made me realize it is okay to care about myself and others too, I cant always put others before myself.  He showed me the true meaning of love and what it means to have a best friend you can tell everything to.  He made me love myself and helped me learn who I am as a person... Or is helping me learn..  We both have helped each other in unimaginable ways that neither of us ever saw ourselves doing.. We made the impossible a reality for each other.

And of course, there are new friends who you find along the way that make you wonder how you ever survived without them, like all of a sudden an empty hole or a void in your heart was just suddenly filled by a kindred spirit.  Chelsea, my oh so wonderful step brother, has made me realize that you can trust people quickly; sometimes you can just tell when it is meant to be.  Sometimes you can just spot a friendship long overdue when you constantly find yourself telling each other "get out of my head!" or "no i thought that first!"  It's not easy to make new friends after high school, and she made me entirely forget that and has made em wonder how, being so so similar and alike, how we pulled it off.  She is one of the most amazing peope I have ever met and I hope we will be in each other's lives for years to come.  She is one of those people that are extremely hard to come by, and most people are never blessed enough to get to meet a special person like her.  I consider myself very lucky to be able to call her my friend, my step brother, my kindred spirit, my where-have-you-been-all-my-life friend.

These people or just a few of the so very important people to me.  I have been blessed with knowing some of the most amazing people.  I will love and cherish you always, no matter what becomes of us in the future.

take a minute to think about the people that are important to you.  It's amazing how often we take these people for granted and fail to realize that these people may not always be in our lives.  They will always leave an impact, and the depth of that impact is on your shoulders.. Make it Count.