oh the life we lead

got basically all of my stuff moved out of the apartment on christmas eve and pretty much all unpacked. Only have a few small things left... and a fold up chair so its nice to have that out of the way.

For my grades, I did alright for the most part. I feel I should have gotten better grades in several classes but oh well.

I am still waiting for one grade, but everything else consists of:

Accounting : B-
Business Law : B
Intro to Macroeconomics : B
Business Statistics : D

I think i should have gotten better grades in macroeconomics and business stats. I have to retake business stats even though i passed it because since i am a business major i need to have a C- or better in that class to be able to take the next math class i need to take.. so lame. he was a stupid teacher and i need to make sure i have another teacher to take that class with.

On another happier note, i had an excellent christmas as i hope everyone else did as well.

I got:

A new mini laptop (dell inspiron mini) which i love!!!
like 5 shirts
chapstick
candles
bath salt
matrix shampoo/conditioner
piroutte (aka sex cookies for those of you remember my junior year obsession with these cookies lol)
new pair of boots
monopoly (apparently its an old fashioned special edition)
Electronic battleship (so sweet i love it)
Tinkerbell car mats.. hehehe
$50
Some Candy
Eyeliner

I also got a few movies:
Wall E
Transformers
Get Smart
Madagascar
The Dark Knight

My mom also gave a few presents to brett and i:
yahtzee
GPS! :-)

Brett gave me:
a sweater, tank, and a pair of undies i picked out hehe
a really cute ring with a heart shape in the middle filled with a ruby, its gorgeous :-)

I got brett a popcorn machine which looks like the movie theater style ones and it is SO awesome.. he loves it which makes me really happy :-)

It was a fun christmas but it was very strange because its the first year my brother hasnt been around and we opened presents much later than we usually do. i obviously didnt get a present from my brother since he is in ohio and JOBLESS still.. i think he may be coming home soon, but maybe not.. depends how the next few interviews he has go over. i hope for him they go well but i just dont think they are going to.. poor kid!!!

i am looking forward to a fresh start next semester, it will make me happy. I am taking one online class which should be interesting. I love taking online classes so much, they are so much easier for me to do and i always do way better in them for some reason...

ugh, need to retake a course.

SO i thought finals went well..

but apparently not well enough.. well, at least in business stats. its the only grade thats posted.

I got credit for the course with a D... however.. for the business program (since i am a business major).. i need to have a C- grade or above. Its a terrible, terrible feeling which absolutely sucks. So i have to (hopefully) retake it over the summer.. i just pray that it is offered.. i assume it is but who the hell even knows!

so that is kind of upsetting..

hopefully my accounting class final/project went way better so im at least passing.

shiiaat.

Oh well. whatever. ill probably learn the material with another prof. for business stats.

NOTE TO SELF: DO NOT EVER HAVE PROFESSOR EL TAHA EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!

hope everybody else did better on finals..

I miss my baby baby<3 :-(

1 final down, 3 finals to go.
Brett left yesterday for san diego, he landed there at 1:40 am this morning our time, poor thing. he had like a 3+ hour delay because of bad storms and they had to take an extra stop in dallas..

He has to pack kurt up and drive back home with him and as soon as he gets home he gets to pack himself up and move.. ha, another situation for poor brett.


Anyways, I've been slowly moving my stuff back to my mom's house because I didn't want to stay at the apartment alone, that is just sad and lonely and depressing.. ugh! its going to be so hard not living together anymore.. But we love each other and we are going to make it work of course. Being away just makes me realize how much i love him and how i love being with him all the time.. and how weird its going to be to not live together. even not doing anything together really but watching tv was fun because i was with him and thats all that matters.

I'm so so in love and I hope this never ends ever. :-)

I love Brett. he is my everythingggg<3

im all mushy cause i miss him lol..
I should probably stop putting off studying for my tests, gaaahh!

rearrange

We have to be out of our apartment by January 10.

Brett leaves for San Diego to help move Kurt back home on Monday, not sure exactly when he is going to be back yet. While he is gone, I plan on studying for my finals, packing up most of my stuff and getting it in boxes at least, and if i have time after everything is boxed up, start boxing up his stuff as well. My plan is to pretty much be moved out of here before Christmas so I'm not worrying about everything. Besides, I'm not going to want to be here alone the week he is gone either, that will just depress me ridiculous amounts. :-(

It's going to be weird when he gets back because all of his stuff will still be here and he will probably still be living here and I won't.. Unless i just stay here a few nights once he gets back anyways which I will probably end up doing, then again its going to be right before Christmas so. We will see how things play out.

it is going to be a weird change because we arent just moving out because of weird scenarios and looking to get right back in another place this time so it's probably going to be a longer stay at my parent's house which is gonna suck (further to work, further to school, unless i stay at bretts house on some of those nights..)

Everything is going to work itself out in the end though. I'm just not looking forward to moving again or packing. I've had my share for now.. At least back home we will be able to save money.. and who knows, we may see more of each other this way than we were before. Only time will tell. Once we have money saved up and a new plan, we can start looking at another place and everything will be awesome again. I can hardly wait.

For now, I just need to make it through finals next week.. AHHHHHH

(accounting and business statistics, please do not be the death of me...i will be oh so sad!)

:-(

Killing time i guess you could say.. :-P

So, my horrible terrible test that i got super upset over in accounting, i got a 47.5 on. About 20 points better than expected so thats pretty sweet haha.. It's an awful grade i know, but i mean considering i thought i was going to get a 25, i'm accepting of it because i didnt study as much of the material as i needed to.

I have to go see my accounting teacher tonight though during her office hours from 6:00-6:45 or whatever so she can discuss a project i sent in to her to get some feedback on and she sent me an email telling me that she can tell there is a lot confusing me right now so i am hoping to get some of that stuff cleared up. Little nervous though because teacher one on ones have always made me feell.. well.. somewhat awkward lol. She also said that she is announcing an extra credit opportunity tonight in class so i am excited about that as well because i'll be able to bring up my grade at least somewhat. :-)

More good news, the other class i was having trouble in, business stats, said since almost everyone in my class had at least one bad test grade, if we got a better grade on our final, he would throw out our lowest test grade and that final grade would take its place as well. So that is also some major bonus points for me, super excited for that as well..

YAY FOR OPPORTUNITIES TO REDEEM MYSELF AND MY GRADES!!! HOORAH, HOORAH!

Anyways, some more exciting things

I am super excited for christmas, i still have a little bit of shopping left but i am doing PRETTY well, so i am satisfied with that.

Aurora's 20th birthday was this past monday so i believe i am hanging out with her on saturday evening to celebrate.. she also gets full custody of ayden tomorrow which is another exciting thing so that will be another part of saturday's celebrating i think :-)

Brett and I have our 1 yr 11 mo. anniversary the only day i dont have a final during finals week.. tuesday , dec 16.. i thought that was pretty hilarious haha :-P

things are looking up. I've got a ton of stuff to get done for the end of the semester and am fairly stressed out but things are starting to look up. yay for teachers being understanding and willing to help out, makes me so very happy.

Classes

I signed up for classes last night. I can't take you my exact order of schedule, but the classes i'm taking are:

Managerial Accouting
Introduction to Microeconomics
Marketing
*Applied business Analysis
Philosophy

*(provided I pass my Business Statistics class that i'm currently taking)

woot woot, should be interesting to say the leeast.. :-P

We will see how things go. :-)

Scary crazies dream

So I had this dream. In the dream, apparently I said I need or want a therapist.

So next thing i know, all these crazies are coming into my house with all their shit (brett and i had a huge place in my dream, it was pretty sweet) and i'm kind of like what the hell are you all doing here? and then the therapist comes in and says oh, well you signed up for the program late so we had no choice but to come and live here with you because there is no other space to do it. And i wa slike okay.. what program i just said i wanted to see a therapist.. so we are with these crazies and i was like to the therapist, okay dude, this isn't what I signed up for, you need to leave now, you and all the crazies you brought with you. And he is like well actually, you need to leave. and im like what are you talking about we signed ayear lease it doesn't even end until july you cant do that.. and he was like well, because of the concern for public health issues, we are allowed to take any place that is for rent and make it our own no matter if it is rented or not if we can't find any other space. and I was like you have got to be fucking kidding me. He said if its up for rent, its up for grabs.


So brett and i are like this is fucking bullshit. So i told the therapist we would leave but hes not getting any of our shit and he can sit on the floor in a bare ass empty apartment.

When i told him that he wasnt getting of our shit, he was sitting on the furniture with the crazies attempting to read a book and hes all do you not understand how rude it is to interrupt people who are trying to read? and i was liek Do you know udnerstand how rude it is to come into someones house and kick them out saying it is now a public housing site? and he is like oh absolutely, its not rude at all. every person should want to help the mentally unhealthy. it was ridiculous. So i told him it was also rude that he thinks he can come in and take all of our shit along with our place, we dont pay off our stuff monthly or pay rent on it, WE OWN IT. so he can kiss my ass if he thinks hes going to take our belongings.

SO brett and I start packing and brett calls his mom to bring over a uhal and he gets the uhaul packed and his car packed and leaves. So i am left alone with the therapist and the crazies, still finishing up my packing and trying to stay as far away from them as i can. Then the therapist comes over to me and says

"See, we are all alone in the end"

Then I woke up.

it was fucking creepy man.

Directions

San Diego was fabulous. I enjoyed every moment I was there and everything we did.. It's basically like a much happier, busier, warmer downtown Portland in parts. It was beautiful there. The gaslamp district (where the hard rock hotel is.. the hotel we stayed at for the first three nights) is basically like walking down exchange street. More restaurants and stores though, it was quite awesome. Wouldn't want to live right in downtown but there was so much liife, people werent inside for the night at like 8:00-9:00 like they are in Maine.. oh goodness, it was awesome. Staying at the hardrock hotel was pretty awesome too, it was so incredible.. lots of awesome memories those few nights there.. so lovely!

I would love to live somewhere in Southern California, close to San Diego.. but not IN San Diego.. did I mention how insane the traffic was there? It was nuts, 6 lane highways and everything.. going like, 80 mph. SO much fun though.

Brett keeps talking about going into the military again... I don't know how I feel about that. He got a car today (HOORAY!!) and after, his mom took us to dinner at pats and was like WELL BRETT IF YOU GO IN THE MILITARY, YOU GUYS NEED TO GET MARRIED FIRST! which was kind of overwhelming.. but its been running through my mind ever since. Jess and Timmy are engaged now, and she keeps talking about it and it just is like AH. Brett and I have been together 1 yr. 10 mon. on Sunday (nov. 16) it's so crazy to think about it.. That also happens to be my dads birthday, how hilarious :-P

I think if Brett did go into the military, I would want to be married just to know that if I'm waiting for so long for someone knowing that they are waiting for me and aren't finding someone new and better... I'd probably feel that way if I was the one leaving as well. Brett's mom was also saying that if we were married, a lot of my schooling would be paid for and Brett would get more money.. and when he has to move to where ever his base is for military housing, we would have better luck and would get family housing which would be pretty cool.. but it would be awfully hard to leave all of my friends behind.. I think I should really start taking it more seriously though now because every day its becoming more and more realistic I think. Hopefully friends would LOOOOVE to come visit me in california ;-) suuunnnyyy warmmm beautiful amazing california!! :-)

It would be hard to be so far away from my parents as well.. Im so used to being a short drive away and like, a whole days worth of flying i think would kill me.. I dono, I'm super close with them though so its hard... UNLESS I could convince them to move out to california with me hahahah :-P

We will see where life takes me in the next year or so!

PEACIN OUT YO

Leaving for the airport at 4:30ish when bretts parents pick us up
flight at like, 6 something

should be in california by like 11:30 CA time!

I will be home like 1100- midnightish on november 11.

have a fun week while im gooone :-)

SAN DIEGO, HERE I COME BABY

I am super excited because I finally have got the "okay" to go to San Diego as far as school goes.. I can make up my test if the test date doesn't change in my Macro class and no one else has a test so its just a matter of letting them know I won't be there (well, in the classes where attendance matters..) So that totally made my day yesterday. She told me if the test date doesn't change she will allow me this one time to take the test on a date before everyone else so everything is awesome. I am wicked excited!! :-)

I get to pick up jeans today that I brought in to get hemmed a week ago, 4 pairs. That's pretty exciting, First pairs of jeans I have ever brought anywhere to get hemmed!! I think I am going to buy a few more pairs at Urban because they have a like buy 1 get 1 free for jeans and the 3rd one is only $10 :-)

Brett wants to get a game that comes out tomorrow so I think i might make him go to urban with me so i can do a little shopping since i have a 40% discount and a few things that I want.. When I work, I have to wear clothes that like represent the style and they cant say any other brand or such on them (which isnt a huge deal cause i don't really buy stuff that says brand name on it) but i think i am lacking a few kind of more casual shirts, its a really casual store so.

Speaking of Urban, My first shift last night went well. It was kind of boring I basically sorted and organized clothes the whole time and made the racks and such look neat. I let a few people into the fitting rooms.. I think I'll learn cash next week or so, hopefully. ha :-P It was cool though. The people I worked with were really nice so that was awesome. apparently I can currently look forward to working black friday? haaa yay ;-) that's probably going to make me go insane but we will see, we will see..

On another note, we havent been able to figure out how the heat works in our apartment yet so its been really freezing. I gotta make brett go over and tell the office to have someone come look at it or tell us how to use it.. or both.. haaa we are so on top of things ;-)

My parents are in Florida for the next week, they left on sunday come back next tuesday. I get to watch their house and such.. wooot ;-) me and my aunt beth. have to go over there today after class.. But my dad showed my how to use the grill so brett and i are ridiculously excited because that means we can have GRILLED FOOD.. This is a big deal because, we dont have a grill... so we are going to the grocery store after my class today and getting stuff to grill with then heading to my parents house and hopefully watching heroes and prison break because i forgot to record them last night and my mom said hers should have recorded but their cable is being screwy so :-/ gotta hope that is working!!

I NEED MICHAEL SCOFIELD IN MY LIIIIFE ;-)

I think I put too much clothing int he washer, it sounds like a friggin stampede in the kitchen.
OH SHIT.

fall<3

The Eastern Trail

Fall is beautiful. The foliage is wonderful, people are relaxed, and everything seems sort of tranquil in a sense. It makes me feel comfortable. Temperature is perfect, Can go outside in whatever clothing I want and not feel too hot or too cold; its just absolutely perfect.

Anyways, I am supposed to be going to San Diego with Brett's family from Nov. 4-Nov. 11 because Brett's brother, Kurt, is getting out of the military. Unfortunately, I have at least one test maybe two during this week although one stands to tentatively move to another day and the other could be before we leave which i am SERIOUSLY CROSSING MY FINGERS IS THE CASE.. Both teachers policies basically say that unless it is a documented health issue with a written doctor's note, I HAVE to be there.. So if the tests happen to fall in that span then I can't go to San Diego which I seriously hope does not happen.. I've never been to the west coast and I would absolutely love to. Unfortunately, school is more important so I may not have a choice. I am just hoping I find out soon so that way I can tell Brett's mom so she does not buy me a plane ticket that I won't be able to use.. ugh, it makes me so sad! I can't even think about it.

I figure it like this. If I am meant to go, then everything will work out. Otherwise, I will have to stay here and take care of my responsibilities to my education and everything else.

Also, I got a 94 on my Macroeconomics test that I had last Wednesday, I just got the test back today.. The next text for this class could potentially hold me back from San Diego, but the teacher said that the schedule is going to be changed and the date may or may not be changed so I am crossing my fingers.. CROSS YOUR FINGERS FOR ME!! I need it!! :-P we will see though. I hope everything goes well. I want to go to San Diego so badlyyy...

My little bumble bee!

My baby, is so friggin cute. She is going to be so adorable on Halloween night!! haha<3 I am really excited. I love Halloween, i don't know why, its not like i ever do anything super special.. I just love it. it makes me happy<3.

Falling out of Line

People around me always push to fit into the way things should be. The average plan for a huge percentage of students now has become go to high school, go to college and get a degree and consider going further with your education, get a career and settle in life. I hate falling into the mindset of all these people but I feel it is so hard to get anywhere without a college degree in this day. With the economy going the way it is, some of us could need up being forced into alternative routes because of inability to pay for an over-priced college. I myself have even found myself scattering and nervous about whether or not next year I will even be able to take out loans to afford my education I know it is something I need to have; it's something I want for myself. Education is important to me for my own personal reasons, because I love to learn. I am not getting this degree for anyone but myself. I have a hunger for learning and honestly, I am going to be kind of broken up when I graduate school I think just because its a routine I am comfortable and set with at the moment. The trouble is, it is so hard now a days from what I have seen to find a reasonable paying job without some sort of degree that could actually support a family which is something I crave as well for my future. I have many goals I want to achieve and I refuse to let anything get in my way, including the economy if we wind up going into a recession.

I also feel that the bail out was somewhat ridiculous and I just pray it does what the government suspects it will do. I'm sorry if you don't understand me right now, but I don't know how much this government boost will do for the GDP (gross domestic product, it basically tells us how much the country is spending both consumers and corporations for those of you who are unaware.) which has everything to do with consumer spending. Yes companies will have more money, but will it be put in the right direction? Money needs to be put into consumer's pockets because right now with the recent fall outs of several large banks, people are panicking and are not spending what they might have before. They have very little confidence in the economy and I suppose I don't really have much confidence either for that matter. Consumer's are the people who will be the ones spending, company's won't invest without knowing a consumer will buy there product so the economy really seems to be lying in the hands of the consumer... yet we seem to be doing nothing to really help them in my opinion. I may be completely off, but based on my macroeconomics class and what I have heard from people around me and on the news, thats just how I feel.. please feel free to share your opinion if you disagree or agree or anything, i dont mean to offend. ( i also have a test coming up in economy so its good for me to practice talking in economic terms lol don't make fun of me I'm a nerd i know it, but like i said, i value my education!)

I love writing too, only a month into the semester and I am aching and yearning for something to write about, probably why I am here practically writing an essay on my blog.

Anyways, I wish college was not so required. If you already have certain skills, like I know Brett has ridiculous computer skills and such, why should you need a paper to tell others that you are qualified and truly hold the skills that are required by a degree? It just doesn't seem to make a whole lot of sense. Isn't the whole point of a degree to learn skills and if you already know the skills it just seems like a complete waste of time.

I don't know. I do find myself beginning to worry about the economy. Yet I can't help but want to go shopping for some new jeans despite the fact that I know I should be saving my money. I need shopping; I am such a girl. Oh the life of me.

:-)

Brett and I went apple picking yesterday and had a little date day. it was a looot of fun, i really enjoyed it :-) today we made an apple pie.. TOTALLY FROM SCRATCH! made the crust and everything and even though its appearance kind of needs some serious help, it tastes really delicious and that is what is important :-)

I'm excited for Halloween. We got foxy a costume she is either going to be a little devil or a lady bug hahahah<3 so friggin cute!

I have two big-ish tests coming up this week, one in macro and one in accounting. I think macro will go okay and im hoping accounting will too but im a little bit nervous/iffy so we will see.. :-/ wish me luck, ive still got like 4-5 days to study for them so THANK GOD!

I love brett and I's relationship. we are so, unique i think and it makes me happy. i just love us, we are so perfect. i cant picture a more perfect love.

I have everything I could possibly ever want and ask for.
Life is beautiful :-)

disappointed..

I'm disappointed in myself. On my first Business Statistics test, I got a 70... C.. which is kind of disappointing. I was really hoping to do a lot better. Given I should be able to get my grade up before the end of the semester seeing as it isnt worth as much as the other tests and if I work hard and study better I should be able to bring it up.. its just disappointing because i made a lot of silly mistakes.

Hopefully my Legal environment of business test went better, I felt more confident with it.

I also need to spend a hell of a lot more time on accounting and macro.. Mainly accounting. Both classes next week are for reviewing the material we've gone over and then tests the following week.. friggin AWESOME.. yea, ha.. almost!

So goal for the next few weeks:
Study more, go over notes more frequently, try not to let school kick my ass.

oh little me. little housewife cleaner me

I splurged and got new shoes and a bread maker today :-) It's going through a cleaning cycle right now and Brett and I are going to the store in a few minutes to grab the ingredients we need to make our first loaf, italian herb bread!! :-) I am very excited. If i decide i dont like it though, ive got 90 days to return it, yea yea.

I feel like I am turning into such a little house wife character. I suddenly feel obligated to clean and don't necessarily mind doing it. I don't mind doing laundry and don't feel as weird shopping for things like laundry detergent and toilet paper.. not to mention my excitement in getting something like a breadmaker, lol. I mean seriously, kitchen appliances?! thats the type of stuff house wives get excited over.. lol

I have my first two tests this week which i am somewhat nervous about but i think will go over okay. I am most nervous about my business statistics class test because he is a ridiculous teacher. ugh. professor el taha.

then i have a test in legal environment of business.. though this class should be fairly easy which makes me happy. most of the information is common sense or just the type that sticks in your mind because it makes sense and when given court cases its easy to pick out the reasons.

Well, i should probably go study.. woot woot.. ;-)

God I am so repetitive sometimes.

I keep saying I am going to do stuff and I never do it.. like eat healthier, start working out again, and just feeling good about myself. To a certain degree I am getting better at like feeling better about myself.. but nothing else lol.

Mental health is a huge part of it of course, and I think that besides stress from school I am doing okay. I'm even managing my stress from school better than I thought I would.. for now. It's still early in the semester to tell so we'll see how things go from here.

I want to just start running or exercising or some combination of both every day just to try to build up some mental and physical strength and start losing weight. My goal is to lose 10-15 lbs, I don't really care how long it takes me (well by Christmas would be nice, or around there. I think that is a reasonable goal if I work at it). I do not want to feel the burn in my legs like I did Friday night from working a busy double though, that was terrible. I felt the burn so bad it took me over an hour to get to sleep that night and I had to wake up early Saturday morning and go back to work.. eeekk!

My brother was going to move to Ohio on Sunday but was not finished packing and since the weather was bad anyways because of hurricane Ike he just kind of pushed it off and I think might be leaving this weekend now or sometime during the week.. but.. WE'LL SEE!

I need to go pick up tip money at Walter's. That makes me happy :-)

The past is the past but the future, holds my dreams

This is a picture summary of the things in my life lately.. I'm feeling the pictures because I just uploaded a bunch and there are too many cute pictures of Foxy to not post any haha:

The two adorable wonderful most perfect things in my life<3

The new addition to the family, Lynx.. My brother's new kitty!

Lols, Foxy playing with her ball



This is Foxy's true self.
Brett and Foxy being all cute


Candid, sniffing the fresh air and looking adorable

Being the charmer she is with that little puppy look that kills me everytime

A silly picture of here looking ghostly because brett isnt the best photographer ;-) but its okay. she's trying to bite me, an everyday occurrence, multiple times a day.


It's always a bad scenario for me to think about the past and what was. I used to have many friends and graduating high school really did kind of end a lot of those friendships for me which makes me sad. Life is too short to dwell on the past; people come and go from our lives every day for purposes that our way beyond us and it's probably for the better. Some people I just think left way too soon and a part of me will always miss them... It's important to focus on the future and realize that the here and now is what is important and live knowing that the choices we make today are the ones that will matter, not the ones of the past; they have already played themselves out as far as I am concerned. Each day is a new day, one of learning and one of making mistakes and I look forward to everything that comes with it; the challenges and the moments of perfection that make life the beautiful thing that it is. Dwelling takes way too much time.

In life, you can not worry about the people who won't accept you for who you are because there are plenty of people who will accept you. Effort of course is always required but there is such a thing as too much effort and I'm sure everyone has put too much effort into someone at some point in their lives... I mean honestly, who doesn't? But we learn from that and that is the important thing.

Things I want to do in the future:
I've decided I want to become more adventurous and I want to try to get some money saved up between Brett and I so we can take a little trip somewhere, just the two of us, and be really cute and adorable. I think that would be really fun for us :-)

I've taken one more step towards selling jewelry by posting it on a blog but we will see how far that gets me.. so far no where, but who knows, it's new!!!

I want to experiment and try new things. I want to live life a little bit more on the edge and not play things so safe.

I want to do new things and try being more crazy, wild, and outgoing.

I want to make new friends at college, there are a bunch of great people in my classes that I've talked to so far and I really need to pursue some of them into friendships because who knows, I might meet someone unexpected... one of those people who are in my life for a specific purpose. yay! I sure hope so..

Classes

So after my first week of classes, I have decided I think it will be a good semester and I am really happy that I decided to transfer to USM.

I love most of my professors (only one who i will talk about later that is kind of iffy) and they all tend to have that ridiculous teacher sense of humor. I find all teachers have a ridiculous witty kind of silly sense of humor and it makes me giggle.

My only professor, Prof. El Taha for my business statistics class (which is supposed to be my most difficult class) has so far proven to be very easy. Although, he is a very soft spoken man and with the accent that I am not used to because I am ridiculous culture sheltered I guess from living in Maine my whole life. I feel kind of bad because I can't understand him but hey, so far it hasnt really affected me and everything seems to basically be a simple review or seems quite basic to me; it's mostly pretty common knowledge as far as I am concerned. I don't see this class being that difficult in all honesty like everyone told me.. let's hope it stays this way.. He is also one of those teachers that goes to the very last minute of class. UGH. He's a nice enough guy and knows its not the most entertaining subject so hes got that teacher humor where he tries to throw in random not funny jokes, he's the least funny though and gets the least response.

My legal environment of business professor is very cool. He's definitely got that teacher humor personality except he's a little bit more funny I think. He's a great teacher and his class is really interesting. Its also nice the only homework he really assigns is reading, he posts his powerpoint lectures online so i can print and take notes on that, and i dont have to bring my book to class.. YAY! He doesn't take the entire class time either. YAY FOR PROF. MANNY!

My ABU (excel class basically) teacher is ridiculous. He's kind of silly and has a ridiculous long gray biker beard with a pony tail and its hilarious, totally cracks me up. He is kind of confusing and its kind of hard being taught a computer skills class for excel in a non computer lab classroom. He shows us everything through a projector and then we are expected to do the work at home on our own. kind of ridiculous but whatever. Hopefully it's an easy enough basic class.

My Macroeconomics teacher is very sweet and she is very passionate about what she does, you can tell that right from the start. She is a very sweet woman and it should be a great class. Its an awkward time once a week class on wednesday's and she said she almost never goes the full class length which will be extremely nice.

My Accounting teacher is really nice but she is a BIG talker. She talks ALOT. She takes the whole class time and its a 700-930 class which makes it a long thursday night. kind of icky but whatever. Only once a week class and shes a nice enough teacher.. Mel is also in my class so its nice that i will have a friend.. I also like the people who sit in my row in that class, we already had to kind of od a bit of group work so i got to kind of introduce myself to them and they were nice. so yay!!

Looks like it will be a fun semester, I'm glad.

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Check out my other blog, I made another one to post my bead jewelry on..

please check it out!! I've posted some prices and such. If anyone has any custom made designs please let me know and we can make an arrangement.

there will be an extra fee of a few dollars probably for custom made designs, no more than $5.

Please take a look, trying to find some new ways to bring in a little extra cash!!

I'll try to post a lot more later but here is everything.

El Theory.

So I have this fabulous theory.

When I get bored, I sit and just think about everything in life, usually whats bothering me which puts me in a terrible mood.

But I've also come to the realization that life is way too beautiful and wonderful to spend time dwelling on being upset or angry or holding grudges against people or things. We are only given a certain amount of time here and if we waste all that time, what is the point?

I'd rather spend my time being care free and happy just doing my own thing.

I've also decided I've taken far too long a break from beading and need to get back into my beading habits and use some of my old beads up before venturing on to new and bigger things ;-) haha

I totally need a date with some crafts, they are amazing.

I love seeing Foxy stand and look out the window on that chair. She acts like such a little guard dog.. it's just the funniest thing!! It totally brightens my day when I come home and see her little face pop out the window all excited to see me. I always thought eventually her excitement of seeing Brett and I when we got home would die down, but it hasn't one bit!! She's still just as excited when we come home as she has ever been... It's adorable.. I love my pup!

I heard from Aurora finally, and she officially has custody of Ayden now!! :-) I'm so happy for her, she's been waiting so long for it to finally happen and now all of her hard work has paid off!! He had his first birthday August 17th. I need to go buy him a birthday present!!! ahh! They are actually coming over to see me tonight around 4:00 since Brett is working int he back of the house today at Walter's doing dishessss :-P I'm so excited to see them!!! I am ecstatic.

I need two more books before I have all my books for class covered at USM. I'm so ready to be taking classes again, I miss having stuff like that to do.. I miss learning. I really do enjoy learning, it's fun to have all this knowledge and have people wonder where you have learned it or how you know those things. I love it :-).

I ordered a bunch of clothes online yesterday from Forever21.com and I cant wait for them to come in, got some really cute clothes!! :-) I'm debating if I want to get this jacket from Club 21 in Portland too. There is a brown plaid one and a green, black, white, and I think purple plaid one I really like. The brown one is 80 and the other one is 95 so I just have to decide which one I want more and which one I feel more comfortable spending that kind of money on. I'm definitely going to get one today though when I bring Brett into Walter's and I may stop at Target/the mall and do some returns or get some jeans at Pacsun since I have like "pac loot" or whatever it's called.

Hopefully tomorrow my parents are having lobster and steamers and I can't wait because I haven't had lobster all summer really!!!! :-) It will be sooo delicious, totally pumped.

I'm very happy with the direction my life is taking me right now. For once, I feel content and happy with who I am, what I will be doing with my life, what I'm going to school for, and the friends that I have surrounding me. Sure, Brett and I have our problems like any couple, but we aren't like any other couple I know either. He is my soul mate, I'm nearly positive. We have a life together now and I don't see that changing any time soon. I truly believe we were meant for each other and the love we share is perfect, quirky, ridiculous, funny, and beautiful in it's own special way and I wouldn't trade it for the world. Sure, I have stayed home and hung out with my baby instead of attending parties or making a fool out of myself, but it is so worth it. I don't really care to party much, I can drink with the friends I have and I don't even drink very often. I would rather spend my time with him, be safe, and be us then be being a stupid drunk (which I can very well be) not really knowing what I am doing. I'm a belligerent drunk sometimes and I know I don't know how to say no.

I've been black out drunk once at our old apartment when Drew and Jake had some friends over and that is one night I NEVER want to repeat.. EVER!!! That was bad.. lol.

Anyways, should go finish up some laundry and such :-).

Where one thing ends, Another begins.

Goodbye livejournal, hello new blogger!

I felt the need to start something new as I do after awhile. Sometimes I feel like online journals are silly and pointless, but the truth is, I need somewhere to talk about things. I get bored easily and just like having something to do, or to write about. I love to write and talk, so what better than something like this?

So let's talk about some of the things happening in my life.

Work:
Walter's has been very busy lately and I have been making a lot of good money so I can't complain. I have been working a lot of hours, but I need the extra money to save up for during the year, pay bills, affording christmas and the new apartment with Brett and Foxy. I love the people I work with so it's not so bad. However, I do not always love the customers and have seriously considered "accidently" dropping a plate of hot food on someones lap, or just so it splatters onto their face/clothing. Terrible things to say, but I totally feel that way sometimes. If you dealt with some of the people I deal with every day, you'd want to do the same thing too!!

Apartment:
Things are going extremely well, but slow here. We are still technically unpacking, boxes are still scattered everywhere simply because we are lazy and the time that I have when I'm not working, I'm either A) Being lazy or B) doing more important house hold chores such as laundry, cleaning, and dishes. We've had several issues with internet, but hopefully it works this time as we had to get a new modem from Time Warner. Time Warner is so unreliable and stupid; if they weren't the big name for internet and we didn't already have cable and a phone through them, I would totally go through another provider. Time Warner is just easy, and it's awful. Foxy is adjusting well, she seems to love it. It's a place to ourselves so we don't need to worry about people going in and out all the time so she's a bit more calm. However, for those of you who know Foxy, you know that calm is never really a good word to describe her. More like, constantly hyper, spaz attack, psycho, maniac, etc. etc. You get the picture.

She actually just ate an eye liner pencil that was in the trash. GREAT! You just have to love trash-digging dogs. What are you gonna do :-P

School:
I am really excited for school to pick up in the fall. I miss learning, I guess I failed to realize how much of my time really was spent on school work. At least work has been keeping me busy most of the time so I can't tell as much but boy when I don't have work, I definitely feel the difference. For those of you who don't know yet (since I've changed so much..) I will be attending USM for Business Marketing. Totally psyched. My schedule looks like this:

Monday:
Legal Environment of Business 1:15-2:30
Spreadsheet and Problem Solving 2:45-4:00
Tuesday:
Business Statistics 1:00-2:40
Wednesday:
Legal Environment of Business 1:15-2:30
Spreadsheet and Problem Solving 2:45-4:00
Introductory Macroeconomics 4:10-6:40
Thursday:
Business Statistics 1:00-2:40
Accounting 7:00-9:30

And thats it! no classes on Friday which I'm psyched about having a 3 day weekend every week :-) As of right now, credit wise, I'm still considered a freshman because I am short by like 2-3 credits which kind of stinks. I am hoping to take a class next summer though, possibly two, to try and catch up and get my correct year status. I think all of my classes this semester are worth 3 credits so I should have 15 credits this semester... I think I have 22 credits total right now so we'll see what my status is at the end of this year.

Educational Goals:
Right now, my intent is to get my bachelor's degree in marketing. However, after having a conversation with the international business teacher, I am very tempted to somehow try to incorporate international business as well. There were a lot of interesting experiences not to mention many advantages to having an international business degree which is awesome. However, I might go another direction and actually start taking a language course maybe and try to get maybe a minor in Spanish or French which would make my abilities to communicate internationally more successful. So, we'll see how things play out. I have a few options that I can play out here and it will depend on how things go with this semester I think.

Personal Goals:
I obviously want to lose weight though I am not really doing a lot about it. Haven't been to the gym all summer... I think I am going to cancel my Planet Fitness membership and get a key for a small community fitness center they have here in Foxcroft. It costs $5 for a key and I can use it as often as I want, no monthly fees or anything. Much cheaper, probably more sensible option for me.
I also want to start beading more again and really focus on trying to find a way to sell them whether it be via small shops in the Old Port or online; whatever I could get working would be absolutely fine with me. I know I could make some money off of that stuff and at a time like this with Brett and I, we could use all the extra spare money we get from having to afford the apartment, bills, food, and the luxuries of everything else as well.

I'd say thats probably enough for now. I've already over done it on my first entry, but hey, who cares? This isn't for anyone else but me. :-)