Oh hello, fancy seeing you here!

So, I have 3 days left of classes, 2 days of finals, an online paper to submit, and I am FINISHED with this semester.

I am RIDICULOUSLY excited!!! :-)  I had two presentations to do for the end of the semester.  I did my Organizational Behavior one last week, and my group got an A!  I just did my other project in my Information Technology class today, well, the presentation for it. 

I only have finals on Monday and Tuesday next week (provided there is no weather issue).  Information technology at 8:00 monday morning... French at 4:10 on Monday.. and Microeconomics at like, 10:00 or 10:45 or something? (i forget exactly..).  Then I have to submit a paper I have already finished by Dec. 16 (next weds) but I am submitting it as soon as she opens the submit link!  SO I will be done by noon next tuesday basically, HOORAY!! another week one more week one more week.. ahg, it cant go by fast enough! so ready for holidays and friends to be home for a little while before all venturing off to school/over seas :-( ill miss you linds and bridgetttt!!!:-(

So classes for next semester look like this..

Monday:
French 4:10-6:40
 
Tuesday: 
 Marketing Research 7:00-9:30

Wednesday:
French 4:10-6:40
Customer Relationship Management 7:00-9:30

Online Courses:
Basic Financial Management
Topics in Literature

Everything is really late, no early classes so I might be able to pick up some lunch shifts at walters during the week, super exciting..  I also only go 3 days a week which will be pretty cool, but im hoping having 2 online courses wont be too bad!! I looove online classes though, but im going to have to make sure i save enough time to do the work for both of them :-P

So im excited for Break, Christmas, New years, Brett and I's 3 year anniversary in january, and many many other things..

Right now, Life is very good.  Life is just absolutely perfect; it's wonderful.  I couldn't be happier, and I couldn't possibly ask for more!! :-)

Good luck to everyone on studying for finals//Finals week!!

Is the semester half over or is there still half a semester left?

Well let's see. here's a rundown of my October since I haven't had much time to write..

1. I got a 94 on my first Information Technology Test
2. I got a 93 on my first Microeconomics Test (this was VERY exciting for me, as a lot of people in my class did not do that well.. I was quite proud of myself :-D!!)
3. Brett's cousin Lori got married on October 10th which was super fun, she was a gorgeous bride :-)
4. I have also been out of work all month because Walter's is still in the process of relocating.  The original open up date was set for November 1st but it had to be pushed back a couple more weeks again.  So im basically going broke // contemplating finding another job for the current time being to pay for bills and christmas.  I think Bed Bath and Beyond was hiring and I want to see if Bath and Body Works is hiring. (thatd be like the best thing EVER no joke lol)
5. Saw Paranormal Activity.  Scary ass movie.  I loved it though :-) 
6. Had my wisdom teeth removed on October 23rd and spent last weekend entirely out of comission in front of my tv and brought the air matress into the living room to enjoy it. Brett took care of me most of the time <3
   
7. My parents were also gone for 10 days in Florida so my brother and I had the house to ourselves while they were gone.  They came home October 26th; they had a great time.
8. Halloween was okay, just hung out at Brett's house watching some scary movies-ish

On another note.  Today I have my second Information Technology Test which better be as easy as the first one or I will be some hardcore kind of pissed.  I also have my second Microeconomics test on Thursday which I am a little bit more nervous about but am thinking I will be okay (cross your fingers for me!)

Voting is also tomorrow so I have to go do that.. I will be happy when people stop hounding me about how I'm voting or being very adamant that just because you agree with the cause that you automatically want to spend all your time helping it.  I am for certain causes but there are also varying degrees.  I am also not voting the way I vote for someone's own personal cause; I am voting for my own personal beliefs; be thankful if I vote your way!

So the Semester is halfway through and its time to start looking at classes.  I am having the most ridiculous time trying to decide on a class schedule; I just do not have a clue! We will see what happens though.  I will make it work :-P ahh goodness...

STRANGE DREAM ALERT!

I literally had the strangest dream ever last night

I only remember bits and pieces, but I was like away at this school.

A MAGIC SCHOOL.

And I was drunk.  But there were a few other people (no one in particular i recognized) who were outside with me like, swimming and playing around.  There were like these crazy invisible bridges that went over water so it looked like you were walking on water too, except they werent sturdy it was like you know, a rope bridge except there were no handles, but it was that wobbily.  But after a certain time it got sturdy like a boarded bridge, though still invisible.  The point was so students wouldnt cross it at night, but if they did, eventually theyd be able to get back across safely. 

The water was crystal clear blue too.  But, not like carribean blue.. like bright blue. morebright than that and a little more green but you get the idea.

So, I was trying to crawl across this moving bridge and it kept twisting over one me so id end up in the water. (remember i was drunk) so all these people had to keep helping me.  this one guy, Jay, was watching out for me because everyone made him lol.  My friend there, a girl name Bo, kept telling me to swim over to this tree because another girl, Caroline, was over there like carving her boyfriends name or something.  But then they had to swim me back because you know drunk swimming is an awful idea.

Then I misheard another guy, Dan, talking about how he was going to get kicked out for cheating and was freaking out.  So Jay helped me out of the water finally after Bo brought me over and I was like "OOOOHMYGGOOD JAYYYYYYYY dan is gonna get kicked outtttttt" you know, in all my drunken slur style (which most of you probably know by now LOL).  and jay was like oh man what happened and i tried to explain but then dan started freaking out and walked away.  Dono what happened there he kind of just disappeared.

Then we were all sitting around a campfire and I proceded, in all my drunken glory (still!) with a nice delicious strawberry daquri in my hand, about how I didnt even know magic existed until like a month ago and here I was, making random alcoholic drinks appear.

Is my dream telling me im wicked anxious for my 21st birthday, warning me that im going to become an alcoholic, Or simply reminding me that I am simply a ridiculous drunk?

(it would be cool to have magic that would just magically make boos appear LOL)

Oh free time, did you decide to hide on me.. cause I can't find you anywhere!!!

I never have free time.  For real.

Most of my time, I am in school or doing homework.  Or hanging out with Brett in the few minutes of spare time I have.  I even bring my homework when I am hanging out with him and have to spend at least a couple hours a night or more on doing homework; it is so NOT fun..

Anyways, here is a minor update of what I've been doing for the past month and how things have been going.

Walter's has officially shut down on Exchange Street as of September 26.  We are also officially out and working towards the new place (the lease ran out Sept. 30th).  We have heard rumors of people looking to put a dance club or some kind of bar into that location, but just rumors for now.. Will be interesting to see what ends up in there!!

So, Walter's is hoping to reopen for November 1 at the new location, 2 Portland Square.  I haven't actually seen inside yet but I have heard a lot of great things about it :-)

Moving along.

School is going well so far.  I got a 100 on my first French quiz which I am pretty happy about :-).  Our second quiz is next Wednesday.  I really like French and the professor is very cool; he actually grew up in France and came over here when he was doing studies to become an English teacher in France, go figure right? :-P

My Information Technology class is kind of silly.  So far we have learned about wikis, the history of the internet, mashups, social networking, html, xml and rss feeds, and i think that covers it.  She told us the first day that attendance isnt required and people slowly stop coming as the semester progresses.. I am totally beginning to see why.  For one, there is no incentive to go to class; we have groups for group projects and each group has to do a student notes page about what happened in class.  So tthere is one class you do have to go to.  Then, on another lecture, you have to come up with 2 questions from either the readings or the student notes and also write a reflective blog post through a blog account.  It's just a silly class, I pretty much have a basic understanding of all of the information I am learning anyways.  Hopefully it will be an easy grade..  I have my first test on Monday.  (another plus side is brett knows all this stuff so i can recruit him to help me study :-D )

Introduction to Microeconomics is a really fun class actually, not necessarily because the information is fun, but my teacher is really cool.. Probably one of my favorite professors this semester if not my favorite.  She is young and really funny so it helps material that isn't super interesting seem a little bit more entertaining than it really is.  I have my first test in her class today and I am a little nervous but I think I feel pretty comfortable and confident in the material. 

Organizational Behavior is pretty cool btu can get kind of boring.  We go over some pretty interesting concepts, but sometimes it just drags on because he lectures.  Don't really need to take notes though because evreything we are graded on we do outside of class.  We have to do chapter reading (which we are doing a pilot program for an online book so thats cool, plus the book was free!) and then a quiz over the chapter.  Then, we also have a journal that we do entries for over every chapter (which sometimes we might need to bring in a response to a question for discussion but not often).  We also get graded on class participation.  Before thanksgiving, we basically finish all the book material and then we have to work with a group on a certain topic to create a tutorial, where you have about a half hour to present material in a new and interesting way.. And thats what we spend the time after thanskgiving break until the end of the semester doing, so it will be stressfree and just kind of relaxing after that :-D

My online class is a lot of work but I am really enjoying it a lot more than I thought I would.  Triple Bottom Line Marketing and Sustainable business.  It is really interesting and even though I disagree with some of the companies and their reasons for making the switch to green, there are other things that are more important like the actual act of switching.  It is hard to explain, but I enjoy the class for the most part. it can get very very tedious though!!!

Other than that, not a whole bunch else has been going on.. I had been working fridays and saturdays but now that walters is closed, I have those days off for like a month, unless they let us come in and help set up or whatever.

Hope everyone else has been doing well.  If i think of anything exciting thats been happening ill post again.. but i think my mind is shot blank for fun things.. I havent even been able to read leisurely since before school started!! :-(

In memory of...

WARNING:  This is going to be a very emotional and personal post.   Do not continue if you are not up to it.

RIP...

Today, I was inspired to write about loss and certain things in light of an event that happened today.

I can not tell you how many people have come into my life that I have loved and lost.. More than I ever really care to admit at my young age of only 20 years old, but there is really nothing I can do about it.. I have seen precious loved ones suffer through painful cancer treatments, never ending hospital stays, and the breakdowns of families at the tragic loss of their loved ones.  I have heard stories of suicide and even read suicide notes of beloved members of my family.. It is one of the most devastating things I have ever witnessed..

 This is very difficult to write about but I feel it is important for someone to get off of their chest because talking about these sorts of events really helps to take a weight off your shoulders.. (trust me, it may not seem like it, but it really does help unimaginable amounts..)

Despite the difficulties, this is how I chose to deal with those losses:

I have lost all my grandparents, and several aunts and uncles.  several people died before i was ever able to meet them which i find really regrettable.  my mom tells me all the time how much i was like my grandfather and how he would have loved to take me out to lunch when i was younger and just watch me be ridiculous (i was quite the funny singer when i was younger.. ie. theres a bathroom on the right belted into a hairbrush instead of the proper lyrics of theres a bad moon on the rise..)   Also, my aunt nancy.  I would have loved to have met her..

When I lost my nanny (my moms mom..) it took a long time to really acknowledge that they were in a better place and they were no longer in any pain.  When i finally started to convince myself that this was true, it helped me to focus on how precious their lives were and how thankful i was to have them in my life.. how lucky i was to be a part of theirs..  I know they were no longer suffering the awful pain they were feeling in those last minutes, and thats how I sleep at night.

It took me a long time to really trust and love people because of all the death i have seen in my life.  Not even just death at all, but the loss of people close to me.  I have had many important people come into my life and leave without a trace.  Its extremely difficult to deal with and makes it nearly impossible to trust others to enter the realm of my world.  How do you place trust in people when you think everyone who is ever going to be important to you is going to leave?

 I really dont think i am the only one who has this difficulty keeping people around them, or i certainly hope not.  to be so young and experience these things (ie. i was in 3rd grade when my nanny died, my last living grandparent) has always been a hard thing for me to deal with.  Death is not easy, not for anyone, not at any age.

The truth is, we dont get over people dying.  we dont forget people.  We simply need to learn how to refocus our attention on the lives of these people and the happiness they brought to everyone.  We shouldnt forget people to deal with the loss, but think of them in that new light.  If we constantly mourn people, we forget to appreciate the person we all knew and loved.. Do you think that person would really want to see people so sad and depressed a long time after they have passed on?  Probably not.  And we should keep that in mind.. to honor their memory.  Forgetting people isnt the answer.  Its okay to push people out of your mind temporarily, but dont forget people who played an important role in your life at one point.  They most likely helped to make you the person you are today.

the unfortunate truth is that people are going to leave, regardless of how you feel about it.  The truth is, its just life.  People change, people make mistakes, and people pass on.  You can't hold out on the idea that you can't trust people because of what youve experienced, because every person is their own unique individual.  you cant live or go through life thinking that everyone is going to leave you.. its just not a way to live.

It's really true what they say, about needing to live every moment to the fullest.  You have to cherish and appreciate what you have while you have it, because you never know when it will be gone.. It could be there one day and the next... Just simply gone, never to come back.  It may be unexpected, or it may be a long time coming.. either way, it doesnt change the fact that they simply will not come back.

We need to learn from these experiences and life our lives to the best for the people we lose. 

RIP: grandpa.. nanny.. peeper.. nana.. uncle glen.. aunt diane.. uncle ray.. aunt nancy.. uncle jutt..  you are all so very very missed.. i love you all very much and think of you every day<3

all good things must come to an end. summer, why cant you just stay here always? OH WAIT, just have to move south for that, how silly of me...

I finished reading two books since my last post:

My Sister's Keeper: Took a while to get used to the chapters and the set up of the book as view points from characters as opposed to actual chapters.. But it was an extremely awesome book. The end totally threw me for a loop though. It was DEFINITELY a tear jerker.. I want to see the movie now though, i think i could handle it.. I HOPE.. Its a great story though, totally would recommend.

The Looking Glass Wars: Also an amazing book.. It was a nice change of pace from my sisters keeper for sure. This book is another take on Alice in Wonderland, basically saying that the character of Alice (though she spells it Alyss) is real and Lewis Caroll took her version of wonderland and created it into this childish fictional story. For example, all of the characters were changed. The mad hatter is actually the queens personal body guard and his name is Hatter Madigan. The Chesire cat is really an assassin who is half human and half feline.. because he has 9 lives. Very cool read if you are an alice in wonderland fan or you like that sort of fantasy stuff. Ive been all into it lately, Im just waiting for brett to get me the harry potter books he has from his garage, grr! ive been bugging him for a month lol :-P Also, this is part of a trilogy. i dont think the last book has been released but the second one is out, called "seeing red".. cant wait to pick a copy of that up!

So thats it for books for now. Im goign to start reading the alchemyst, the ssecrets of the immortal nicholas flamel soon. its my next venture!

So I've seen a lot of lindsey since she has been home which is lovely because she leaves us again on Saturday for UNH :-( terribly sad if you ask me..
We've gone on shopping trips, beach trips, chilled by her pool, and just relaxed. Weve had some fun nights since shes been home and had some great memories. Its been like Lindsey, rosa, keith (rosas boyfriend), brett, and i hanging out and its been super super fun. i love it!!

I just got my rebate check or whatever from USM for the extra amount over my original loan which is for over 1200 :-) SUPER EXCITED.. probably gong to try to scoot tto the bank to cash that shit before the bank closes today if i can :-P

Well, in other news, School starts aug 31 and im pretty excited.

BRETT IS EVEN TAKING CLASSES AT USM THIS SEMESTER!!!!!!!!!!
I seriously could not be more thrilled :-) hes taking an intro to political science course and an english course for now. If he passes this math placement test he has to take, he might also be taking a math course, but thats up in the air still at this point.. BUT UGH! im so amazed and so proud of him for signing up... This has been like 2 years of procrastination finally happening :-) YAY!!

catch up like ketchup?? naah just catch up..

Nothing super eventful happening lately. Probably why I have been lacking entries.

I have read one more book and am currently on another one.

The Waiter's Rant: This book was so awesome if you've ever been a waiter or worked in the restaurant world at all. So easy to relate to some of the situations he describes its like, oh my god did we have the same customer?!.. like he talks about people wanting window tables with no reservations on New years (probably the busiest day of the year). Its just ridiculous. And then, said people get angry when they CANT have that table with no reservations, or better yet when they cant get a table AT ALL!! anyways, as a host, i loved it. I hear a lot of those stories from the servers and am so glad if i dont want to deal with a table after i seat them, i really dont have to.

My current venture is My Sister's Keeper which is good so far but the way the book is organized (not really chapters, instead its split up by character view points as chapters) which took me awhile to get used to but now i really like it.

I am thinking about going to get my hair highlighted today because brett has to work and i of course have nothing better to do and ive been thinking about doing it for awhile.

Lindsey comes home from ENGLAND today!!!

(this is a secret but Rosa and I are trying to throw her a welcome home party tomorrow if we can ever get things organized.. with the girls and such. it should be exciting if we can get the details panned out and its going to be a beautiful pool day so we will get to go swiiiimmmiiinggg hopefully!!)

Not a whole lot else is going on. just reading, work, brett and such.

Classes starts August 31st :-(. I have to do this weeks chapter work for my online class and then next week is the final, yippeee so close to being done my summer course, so exciting!!

Of course, as soon as i finish ill be jumping into all of my fall courses and work will be taking a back seat as well. Ive spent way more than i should this summer but its been fun and its been worth it. However, Im afraid im going to be hurting this winter. More classes and time being occupied should help to curb that though i am hoping.. Maybe ill try to keep a few more shifts than usual under my belt this semester :-P

Book Review......

So, I have read two books since my last post..

The Alchemist: I really enjoyed this book. its different from what I have been reading lately but it was pretty cool, it was the story about a shepherd on a journey and it was just excellent. Great story, great characters in it

The Time Traveler's Wife: I LOVED this book.. can't wait to go see the movie when it comes out in August.. It's a great love story and shows a lot of character and everything. A lot of hardships and conflicts and shows how powerful love can be. really interesting story line though..
I would totally say this is probably going to become the new "the notebook" love story.. and how ironic Rachel McAdams is in this movie too... Love her, and i think she is going to portray the wife perfectly :-) Very excited!!!

Tonight I am going to start another, but I am not sure which yet..

A girl I work with was reading this book today called Waiter Rants and I want to read it really bad, I guess its like a really hysterical account of this guy and some of the situations he has had to deal with concerning customers.. I read a couple passages today and they were SO hilarious... So, I really want to read that book as well. Brett is supposed to be scavenging and finding me his Harry Potter books so I can read those, lol :-) I know I know, i must be one of the only people ever who hasnt read the harry potter books.. im workin on it!!!...

I want to go see the new harry potter movie this weekend though, brett and i finished watching the other ones last night so im all excited for it now :-)

Work was busy today once the rain came which was good. not sure how many people we did, but I would guess 120+ which is really awesome. Should make some good tip money!! YAY!

Have to work tomorrow too but it probably wont be as busy since it is supposed to be nicer again tomorrow. not that im complaining about nice weather, its just much better for business when its rainy and gross out because people dont want to go to the places thta have outdoor decks and eat otuside so much.. :-D

im super excited for walters new location though :-) moving to 2 portland square at the end of september and reopening in mid october! YAY...

readaholic?

Since this summer has been ridiculously rainy, I have been indulging in many many books.

I have read:
For One More Day - Mitch Albom
The Twilight Saga - Stephanie Myer
*Evermore - Alyson Noel
*Blue Moon - Alyson Noel


*(alysen noel books are a series called the immortals)

Went to Borders today and purchased 5 more books to read:
The Alchemist
My Sisters Keeper
The Time Travelers wife
The Looking Glass Wars
The Alchemyst (The secrets of immortal nicholas flamel)

I started reading the alchemist tonight.. yay for having something to keep me entertained this summer, lol.. well, along with my online class!

I am really int his Live for the moment phase right now and like take each day a step at a time. Its weird, but its kind of helpful and theraputic in a sense.

However, I need to make more money. Ive done a terrible, terrible job at making money and saving it this summer... :-/ NOT SO GOOD

rewind? god i hope not.

My life consists of Working, Brett, and as of about 2 weeks ago, my online Applied Business Analysis (aka. online bullshit course) .

I have no time for anything!! I had a nice shopping trip with Bridget though. that was sweet.

Going to vent for a minute. bare with me. just detoxing from a previous situation which was brought back up unneccessarily.

I just think it would be better if people let things that happened in the past to just stay in the past. Seriously, life is way too short to dwell on the past and all the mistakes or errors or problems we might have made... or had with other people. Shit happens, we all make mistakes, we are only fucking human.

Am I right? or am I under this completely false interpretation of life and how I should be living it?

Fuck it. As long as I am happy and the people Closest to me are the happiest, I really couldnt give a fuck what anyone else has to say.. I am Way too good for that shit, and way more over it. :-)

How awful is that, I feel like a god damn high schooler. This is supposed to leave after high school. i mean, seriously. What the fuck.

Im done!

Twilight craze has hit and made me crazy..

So, after my last blog, i wrote that i had just watched twilight for the first time. Well, I guess you can say i got a little crazy, because after that first viewing.. first, i went and bought the movie, and then monday-Friday, i spent nearly all my free time not spent working/sleeping/other various obligations i had.. to reading. I finished all 4 books in 5 days...

Im a little bit of a nut when i read because i hate stopping and restarting things, so i usually just read continuously. I have a terrible habit of reading obsessively like that.. finishing the whole book within the first day of starting it. It was well worth it though, I loved the books. The movie was not as good as the book by far because you missed a lot of well, fairly important information that i would have wanted to know (so im glad i read them).

I also heard a few of the songs rob pattinson put on the twilight album which are incredible. I never knew he had any musical talent, so i was pleasantly surprised when i heard him and heard he was a pleasant sort of mix between joe purdy, ray lamontage, maybe even a little john mayer (his voice is a little higher than the first two, but his voice is kind of raspy and sexy like theres).

Needless to say, ive been obsessiving over the two songs "never think" and "let me sign" which are his two on the twilight soundtrack.

can you see how into this movie i am?

Anyways, on another note, i want to get my hair cut. I want bangs. I want short messy crazy tons of layering action. (okay its kind of like alice cullen from the twilight movie.. aka ashley green, but i absolutely love her hair...)

Honestly, i want it like this picture here:

http://foto.m.onet.pl/_m/80f5a77ceb41767ffb1976d1335d4190,14,19,0.jpg

except i want it to start out a little longer, like as long as her longest strand there, and have the layering action just like that with some of the really short lengths near the top. I absolutely love love love that style and its time for a change!!

Im nervous for bangs though i havent had them since like forever... since i was i middle school. and really like that since like 1st/2nd gradeish LOL...

on another note, totally stoked for the new transformers movie coming out.. i hope we can go to the imax midnight showing tuesday night in saco! AHHHG... want to see it so bad, love love love shia labouf<3

im looking for some good books to read, so if anybody has any suggestions i am more than open for suggestions. My next book that i am aiming to tackle is angels and demons, and than after that i might finish my chronicles of narnia books, ive got like 3 or 4 left in the huge anthology of all 7 stories.

Ive been in a huge reading mood lately, i love it.. :-)

I also really want the new DMB cd, ughhh so badly. love DMB..

Im just super bored adn stalling right now so im going to stop mumbling and try reading or watching this movie on tv, currently is "the strangers"... but might be watching pirates of the carribean in blu ray when mom gets out of the shower, hoorayy :-P

I finally did it!!

So its been awhile. Nothing super entertaining has happened... Ive basically been working and seeing friends, the gym and such, you know, the basics.

I saw Jenny R. the other day which was awesome because i never get to see her anymore because our schedules get so crazy so, that was extremely nice. Seen a bit of Lindsey, Bridget, and Jess which is also pretty decent.

The other night I watched twilight for the first time.. which i made brett watch with me.. (well i watched it at his house anyways lol). I finally think i understand the twilight craze thing now which is insane because i always thought all of that stuff was crazy and dumb... but omg it was such a cute movie i friggin love it i just want to watch it again and read the books now lol...

Ive been tot he movies alot lately too.. mostly with brett, but I saw UP with Mandy which was a super cute yet sad disney movie actually, i was sad.. but ti was cute<3

We went to see night at the museum 2 in IMAX which was pretty sweet, there were jsut a ton of people there and some rude asshole tried to give me shit for telling him that he was sitting in bretts seat and got all oh yea well if someone is sitting there where is he.. i was just like. UM GETTING FOOD WHILE I SAVE THE SEATS.. and he was a fat bastard too. i got really pissed can you tell ;-)

We also went to see Angels and Demons which was a fabulous movie. I started reading the book today (again lol, is tarted it before but didnt get far and it was a long time ago so im starting over...) which so far is good but its still just building up to the story. The movie was excellent though, i really enjoyed it. Tom Hanks is a great Robert Langdon, totally fits the role so well.

Last night, we went to see the Hangover which could quite possibly be one of the funniest movies I have ever seen.. its absolutely hilarious and i loved it SO much.. so many great moments and i totally recommend that everybody should go see it. So so so good :-)


this rainy weather lately has totally made me feel pretty exhausted lately along with lack of sleep which is not fun either lol. ive been so tired the past few days i just cant seem to get enough sleep which bothers me!! :-P

I got my nose pierced like last saturday.. I absolutely love it. It doesnt even hurt at all anymore, it isnt read or swolllen or anything.. looks like it sbeen there for awhile!! its very awesome, love it so much :-) I finally got to get a build a bear too because brett promised me since we started dating if i got my nose pierced he would get me a build a bear hahaha it was freakin awesome<3 so exciting! i love it, i love my teddy, love my boyfriend, my nose, my liiiiife!!!!<3


Old Port fest last weekend was also pretty entertaining. Just walked around wtih brett adn got some fresh lemonade and a lobster roll.. we left for awhile after we had walked around the entire place and looked at some really cool jewelry and such... definitely think i proved to myself that my jewelry is good enough to be there though :-) it was a definite confidence builder..

Anyways, yea, we left and went to get foxy and some cigars (lol) and then went back for a little bit but not for long because foxy got pretty overwhelmed!!! but it was fun i think she had a good time<3


im gonna go be lazy on this rainy gross day lol :-(

For your consideration...

So let's see.  Ive got so many tattoo ideas and no idea which ones im actually going to seriously get, except im pretty positive about one i want.

I know i want to get two blue birds chasing each other because my grandmother gave me these two little glass blue birds that were supposed to bring you good luck.  For awhile, i used to carry one in my purse, probably close to 2 years...  so they are really special.  Two because my mom ended up giving me hers as well.

I have always loved astrology, so i really want to get some sort of tribal kind of anklet tattoo that incorporates stars but i want it to be a very smply and cute design.  kind of like the whole wavy design where you can put the stars in a line and then weave in and out... its hard to explain exactly but hopefully you gettt it!

I think a tiger would be really cool but i havent been able to find something that i really like super a lot.  I want it to be like feminine and fierce but not like really like man scary... yet not super baby tiger cute (which is what ive always been looking at)

I also want to get a hummingbird at a flower at some point because they have alwasy been kind of a big thing in my house and they are just like these crazy little small buggers that are so cute and they have some like mysterious sort of mythical meaning behind them i guess (not entirely sure about that id have to look it up to be entirely certain) but yea.  :-P

I ALSO WANT TO GET MY NOSE PIERCED I THINK but im super super nervous lol :-D

Anyways. besides my tattoo adventures because ive been really craving one lately so its been on my mind.. 

Ive been working mornings and been pretty free during the nights.  I went out fo rice cram with jess one night, hung out with linds and bridget which was fun.  linds and i watched bride wars and were like LOL OH GOD HOPE THAT ISNT US because you know weve been best friends for awhile. haha, so that was pretty funny :-)  i went to bretts last night after he got out of work and then worked this morrrning, and im spending the night again..  and working tomorrow morning.. then i have 3 days off which im happy about! :-) 

Been beading again which is super fun, expensive, but its fun and worth it. i love it.

:-) life is pretty good right now.  except this sucky weather needs to leave and bring me back some friggin suuun maaanng!!! :-P

Honorss?, Woo hoo!

Officially got all of my grades back:

Business Statistics : A-
Marketing : A-
Philosophy : B+
Linguistics : B-
Accounting : B-

Overall, I am really satisfied with my grades :-)

For the summer, it looks like I will be working all morning shifts mostly at Walter's, which I am cool with because I don't make tips anymore hosting at night.. But I still make tips at lunch :-D Hooray!

So, my schedule will be 11:15-2:30 (more like 2:45ish) Monday-Saturday (except for holidays, ie. memorial day)

Once summer is in full swing, it will be 11:15-3:00.

Excited to start saving money and working more, it should be a good summer.. or so I hope!! Things are looking up right now and I'm counting on things to stay that way..

I am getting pretty into the gym thing, i like the feeling i get after i leave the gym so thats really a good motivation for me.. Plus it gives me something to do when everyone else is busy adn i have spare time// have nothing else to do with myself.. LOL..

Just need to get on my bead jewelry sellingness. The day i sell my first necklace, im seriously going to spaz out hardcore lol :-) love!!!


<3 so if anyone is interested.. let me know.. ;-)

So lets see. I had an eventful weekend, but not in a good sense.

In not wanting to dwell on the past, Lost some friends who were pretty close but apparently werent that close after all. I made some mistakes, I have learned those mistakes, and have moved on; thats it. nothing more or nothing less to this situation. I chose to move on and simply not talk to these people anymore because I know they do not want to speak to me (though i am not sure I would want to speak to some again regardless of if they wanted to speak to me).

What doesnt kill you makes you stronger, and I am a better person for it.

Moving on from that, I had a pretty decent weekend with Brett. We just kind of hung out and had some quality time together which was really nice and fun. I love nights like that.

I got my own month by month gym membership to Pfit in westbrook which is a long ass drive but it is worth it because I feel a lot better at the end of the day after I have been to the gym; thats what is really important.

After the gym today I returned my books to USM and got 106 for like 5 books which was kind of ridiculous but should have been expected (i jsut wanted some immediate cash for shopping). I have two books left that they wouldnt take so ill try online or wait until next semester for those ones..

After that, we had a great shopping trip.. Went up to freeport and spent about an hour at the beadin path, then headed back to south portland and went to target, AC Moore, and the mall for a little bit. I got some hair stuff, some crimp beads rom AC moore that i needed, and two shirts from forever 21 which are both super super super cute so im excited about that :-)

I have plans tomorrow to go to lunch with Katie, who i havent really talked to in ages and I am really excited about that because we used to be best friends and i havent seen or talked to her in so long. We were so close and i totally miss that.. Im hoping maybe we can get a friendship kind of back on track, that would make me super super happy.. we were so close, its just such a shame to see the point we are at now!!

I am also hopign to have a girls night with lindsey and jess this week which I am in DIRE need of.. Gosh, i totally misss just hanging out with them and being our crazy selfs. good times, but i dont ant to always reminise, i want some now good time moments!! I am really hoping that ends up working out with them one night! :-P

I have a few extra shifts at Walter's this week since summer has started (hence my little summer burst of shopping, though i still need to buy a solid pink bikini..).. This week I am working weds-sat morning and am hoping to start going to the gym before work, then showering at the gym and heading to work so i can get a nice work out in. My goal is to go 5 days a week.. the times may be skewed every day, but my goal is mornings when i can.. if not mornings, then whenever i can get my ass there!!

had a great work out today.. can still feel the burn in my abs, oh jesus!! :-P

(Dear Bridget, thank you for getting me hooked on the gym again. Love, Kristen)

I have officially completed one summer goal:

PASS BUSINESS STATISTICS!!
I am extremely proud to say I passed the class with an A-, my highest grade in a USM course so far!! (i am still waiting to hear back from 3 other classes for grades)

I also found out my Philosophy Grade, B+, which I am pretty excited about as well! :-)

I have to eventually do some crazy extra credit assignment for marketing and email it to my prof. by Monday so thats pretty cool. I felt pretty good about my Accounting Final and I also felt pretty good about Linguistics today (i hope!) so, we will see how things turn out :-)

Summer, Right around the Corner!!...

Well, actual class time is over for me, Now I have 4 finals left..

Statistics, Marketing, Accounting, and Linguistics.. HOORAY..

So, I have a butt load of studying to do this week/weekend (stats EXAM is monday morning at 8 and if any of you recall, that is the class i had to retake from last semester..)

So I've come up with some ideas/goals for myself for the summer and most probably should carry into the fall..:

• Make and SAVE (keyword SAVE) lots of money
• Start going to the gym again
  
• Learn to/Go kayaking
• Make lots of beautiful bead necklaces and other pieces of jewelry and try harder to get them out there to sell...
• Eat more fruits and veggies and to keep not soda very much
• Get a little tan?!!?
• Go campingg
• Spend lots of time with friends who have been gone at school//who i missss (and all friends in general of course..)
• PASS APPLIED BUSINESS ANALYSIS (which of course, comes after I pass Business stats, so I suppose i should say PASS BUSINESS STATS before anything else..)
• Have a girls weekend and go shopping somewhere not in maine. Like new hampshire or something.. because ive never done that!!!
• Go to Boston maybe?!!?

Thats it for now. maybe ill eventually come up with ssome more ideas later :-) :-P

I registered for classes last night for Summer/Fall 2009! HOORAY

Here is a little preview of how my schedule will look...

Summer 2009:
Applied Business Analysis (an online course running 7/6-8/21)
I am taking this course online because i had to retake business statistics which is the pre req for this class and apparently all of the business math classes have foreign people and my advisor told me if i had difficulties with accents and such then i should probably take this class.. so i took her advice.. she also said since its summer if its the only class im taking and i can handle the accelerated part of the course then i should be fine as well, some students preferred it more because they only had one class to focus on which i think will definitely help me out alot

Fall 2009:

Mo/We
Information Technology/MIS 2:45-4:00
Beginning French 4:10-5:55

Tu/Th
Introductory Microeconomics 1:15-2:30
Managing Organizational Behavior 2:45-4:00

Then i have one online class..
Tripple Bottom Line Marketing


Looks like it should be a good semester!! hopefully the teachers are decent.. My advisor is teaching my online course so thats good, it will be nice since i already know her. I love taking 1 online class so i only have to come in for like 2 classes a day.. or the dumb me who decided to take 3 on a tues/thurs and one on a mo/weds this semester, god tu/th are long freakin days this semester..

Lets see, besides school and such, nothing exciting has really been going on besides my tattoo idea which i mentioned before. Possibly thinking of getting my nose pierced with jpearson but im nervous and not sure if i can pull it off! Birthday is coming up too which im pretty sure i mentioned before... same with the end of the semester and some expensive bills i gotta pay soon which im not super excited for lol.. but! with the end of the semester means working again so i should be bringing in the big money again im hoping lol, i need some big checks and soem good tips so i can put some money away into my savings and pay for bills and all that fun crap :-P

also craving to go on a shopping spree at forever21 which is probably not the best idea but sounds so fabulous right now. I just am burning through money this month and its not good, gotta at least wait until summer when im making bank again ya know!

ladedaaaa

So, registration for summer/fall 09 classes is coming right up, april 21st.. hoping i get into applied business analysis as a summer coursee... woott

birthday is also coming up. I want to get a new tattoo that i have a basic sort of design in my head that i just need somebody to sketch for me and what not.. probably going to just go to a tattoo artists and see if they can sketch an idea out for mee!

I want to get a two or three flower design on my foot that goes on the top my foot with kind of like vines starting near my ankle and kind of wrapping down onto my foot. Then, with the flowers, i want to add a hummingbird at one of the flowers..

I want to do like, one purple (deep purple) flower and one pink (hot pink though) flower and use some bright shades of the colors so its a bright and lively colored tattoo and really pretty.. then, i want the hummingbird to be a really bright shade of blue (a little brighter than this shade) and then as it goes towards the belly, i want some green(except a much more tealish green) to slowly blend into it so the color is a blueish green color..


its kind of a working idea right now but i have the idea in my head and i think its goign to be really pretty.. :-)

Spring is making me feel creative. I need to start indulging in some more bead creativity and maybe make another attempt at finding some creative way to sell my jewelry. A little extra income would always be super awesome. But we will see. Just because I put something out there doesnt mean it is ever going to sell.. but you never know until you try.. so im working on it!! enthused right now.. happy, excited for summer and the end of this semester. It feels like its been a long semester when i dont think its been that bad in reality but, oh well. haha, i just love the feel of summer and i can practically hear my bank account growing and making little 'cha-ching' noises already!

Summer Sun, I feel your warmth shining through

What a beautiful day today!!! :-)

So lets update.

I think i am pretty set against not going for an english major now, i dont think i have ti in me to add that much on to my schooling.. However, i may still add a possible english, writing, or a foreign language minor (probably french, spanish, or russian. I am currently very undecided in this aspect :-P)

Break was lovely but way too short and I didnt get to see brett very much because he worked like 5 nights which stunnkk.. But i got to see some other friends and such which was really fun. Got to see aurora and ayden and i hadn't seen them in a real long time so i was really happy for that.

Other than that, not much else has really been going on. Just trying to get through the semester. I go and meet with my advisor tomorrow to kind of make out a course plan for next semester which im not thrilled for but will be happy to get it over with..

The only other thing thats really been going on is just trying to keep my eyes out for a possible apartment soon, though we dont really have people to move in with yet but its a work in progress and im crossing my fingers we will be moving in some place in may/june-ish.. basically be somewhere for summer.

thats basically it, sorry for the dull update but i was bored and felt the need :-P

Break!!

I could not be more relieved that I finally am on another break.. THANK GOD!! The last two weeks have been awful as far as school work is concerned. Huge assignments due in every class from last friday through this week (ie. four tests, 1 essay) so needless to say, im so freaking excited to just have a week offffff!!!!

I have to work today and after that im going to be cleaning my room alll night.. I think i might eventually paint my room at my parents house if Brett and I aren't planning on getting an apartment soon so we can basically save up some money and maybe afford a place thats a biiit nicer.. lol. we will see how that goes though..

i want to take down the ugly border and make it like some really pretty teal green blueish color, right now its like this awful dark blue and the dark color of it makes my room feel so small and it bothers me i guess lol..

Nothing really new in my life thats exciting other than being on break.. Just bored and had spare time while getting ready to go to work...

Still considering changing my major to english, but may just add an english or writing minor, i will decide afterr i take an english course or two to see how i like it or if i like it at all. It counts as an elective if nothing else, lol..

Stressed!!!! yet here I sit..

I have in the next 2 weeks:

3/13
Marketing test starting Thursday (it is an online exam i can take any time in a 48 hour window or so, will be opened all weekend and i have 1:45 to answer about 80 multiple choice/true false questions)

3/16
Accounting Exam Monday 11:45-1:00

3/18
Accounting Extracurcciular Activity due Wednesday (3/18)

3/19
Business Statistics Test Next Thursday 10:00-11:30
Philosophy Essay Due at 1:15
Lingustics Test 4:00-8:00 (open book so I can use all of my notes and can take it anytime in that time frame and take as much time as I need)

So, needless to say, I have a shit ton of studying and preparing to do. Thank god two of them are open book so it is just a matter of organizing and making sure i have a general idea of things. I need to study more in marketing though since it is timed and i have like 80 questions to answer so, I am hoping that one goes easier than i think. I outlined all the chapters and the important points with sticky notes and will probably do the same thing with my Linguistics notes which is also an also note book test.

I need to study a lot for Accounting and Stats though and my essay is going to have to get thrown in their somewhere this weekend. ahg!!

On another note,
After my accounting class today, I have a meeting with the English Advisor to discuss what the major entails and how my classes would fit in with everything and such, so we will see how that goes. I am really excited for it though :-)

If everything goes as planned or as I hope it to go, I will end up being an English major with a minor in business. AT this point, i have so many business credits it would be silly not to at least minor in it, im only like 4-5 business classes away from a minor anyways. I always wanted to take a minor so I feel pretty comfortable with that change as long as English seems to be what i think it will be. I want to ask her about like different careers and stuff even though I've looked at it, i just want to hear what the most common/popular English major careers are. It will help to come from an actual advisor as well as opposed to a website :-P

Brett i think is going to take classes next semester at USM!! I am so excited, he wants to go in as a Political Science major and sign up for the military after like 2 years but then finish his 4 years while enrolled in the military so he can go in as an officer or whatever? then he wants to get his masters so maybe he could work in some sweet like government job or something along those lines (i have no idea how the whole deal works.. FOR THE RECORD!) So, if i add a new major, ill pretty much still graduate the same time he would with a bachelors or like, within a year of each other.

However, this will also make it harder for us to get an apartment and such which is going to stuck and mean we probably can't get one for awhile but eh, whatever i guess.. At least he is finally going to get an educate and hes deciding on a path to take, i am so so proud of him! oh how i love my baby..<3

In acceptance of myself..

I am not your every day average girl. I love style, but i will sacrifice style for comfort any day. I am a PRO at stylish comfort ;-). I love to wear bright colors, and i love to make bead jewelry with bright colors. I find it extremely exciting when i make a bead necklace that somehow amazingly matches a shirt that i never intended it to go with but it works perfectly. Think i am a nerd all you want for beading, but i make sweet jewelry that eventually i will hopefully someday be able to sell and profit off of (ugh, yea right!)

I love to write and I love to be. I hate when things don't go my way, i over react in excess in these situations (ask the boyfriend, its not pretty). I used to be a huge fan of poetry, but not so much anymore. i used to write poetry IN EXCESS. like 3 or 4 poems a night. i was insane. i got on a roll man. I remember most of my dreams and they are very story like. My dreams often make me awake to how my body is feeling and how i am feeling in my conscious.

I love the beauty in fine simple things, like seashells and the way foxy cuddles up to me at night when we go to sleep. Or when Brett kisses my forehead and tells me he loves me before i go to sleep. Or the way he tucks me in because i make him do it but secretly i know he loves doing it more than anything ;-). I love the way he holds me, and the way foxy kisses my hand when she wants something. I love the sound the waves make when they crash against rocks. I love all the bird songs and the music wind chimes make in the summer. I love the feel of a warm sun on my skin and wearing flip flops. I love wearing sunglasses all the time, even in the cloudiness, because they just fit me (and my eyes are super sensitive to sunlight i suppose)

I hate the fact I always feel overweight, but i am becoming more accepting of my image. I want to be more passionate and I want to succeed. I want to take more pride in my work and not be so self conscious about everything I do. I want to believe in myself the way people around me believe in me.

I think i want to change my major to english with a minor in business, but im an inconclusive, indecisive person so chances are, i will be constantly torn between this possibility until the very last moment. I'm a procrastinator, if you hadn't already figured that out.

I love dancing though i don't do it nearly enough, and I love singing in my car to loud music. I feel like a bad person when i think of friendships that have slowly dissipated into nothing and its hard for me to think about. I love dave matthews band a lot and there is nothing more relaxing then listening to grace is gone or grey street.. best songs in the world, for real, i love them. however, i have also been a huge fan of the fray and the spill canvas lately to go to sleep to.

I love listening to music before i go to sleep. it helps to soothe me and i love to calm myself down like that. A lot of people hate it because it clogs their thoughts, but it relaxes mind. I always sleep with a dozen thoughts on my mind, but good thoughts. If i think of something i forgot to do, i wont be able to sleep until i do it (like if i forgot to print a paper and i think ill forget to do it the next day, i have to wake up and print the paper so i can sleep or i will constantly think about it, even dream about it, its ridiculous).

I can't handle anything to do with abuse or suicide without feeling sick to my stomach for reasons you will never know unless you already know them. I cringe a little at the thought of women thinking in any shape or form that it is there fault somebody hit them; there is never a reason.. there is always another way. Threats are not an answer either.

I love to watch scary movies just so i can scream and cuddle. I love holding hands more than anything. I love astronomy and constantly wonder what is out there? I think people who believe that there isnt much beyond our galaxy are naive and close minded, or just severely uneducated.. Not to mention, i also would consider them to be selfish in a sense. But i am a selfish person in many senses so, you can't expect anyone to be perfect.

I think organized religion is scary. I believe what I believe and that is that. I believe in spirituality and Chi, among many other things. I believe in guardian angels because I know i have had many times where there has been someone looking over me who has saved me in many ways. I have no grandparents because they have all passed on. I know more death than i have ever cared to know at age 19. I sometimes wonder how much i should feel or how much i should care.

I never thought i would know what love is until i met brett. Its amazing the things another person can teach you or show you and they dont even realize it. It's amazing how another person can save you and not know how powerful their own actions were. it just is incredible to know the effect someone can have on your life can be so life changing or so small, but all are so important and crucial to our character and who we are.

I hate to think about how small i am in comparison to the world, to the universe. I am small already compared to everyone else, its not like i need any more reasons to feel even smaller! But the world is a big and beautiful place!


This is who I am, This is who I always will be. I will never change or accomodate your tastes or styles. I will never change to fit your mold. I am a constant, and there is nothing you can say or do to change that, or to change me.

Take it or leave it.

Social frustrations

still seriously looking into an English major with a Business minor.
Except that means a lot more schooling.. with the economy, school may not be a bad place to be..

My dad told me today I need to get out more, that was kind of weird considering going out never used to be a problem for me.. kind of sucked, oh well.

I told brett and he said once we get an apartment it will be better and we will have people over for some nice chill sessions and just kind of be relaxed and such, which i am totally extremely so excited for..

I can't wait to get another place, im sooo over being back at home; its irritating, im done with it, for real.

I need something different, a change of scenery, something. Maybe i just need summer, summer makes everything really lovely.

I think I mostly just need more friends, i feel so lonely lately... I have few hobbies and what hobbies i do have are expensive. A lot of my free time is spent doing school work, working, and seeing brett, it makes doing other things difficult. I've made a few good friends at school but i dont see us like going out outside of school to hang out, though it would be fun..

Anybody wanna be my friend and hang out with me? I need more social interaction, i wish all my friends hadn't gone out of state for school :-(

Oh lawdy Kristen, What have you gotten yourself into now!

I am happy to report that on my First Business statistics test of this semester, i got a 100 (as shown in the grade book. see, he gave us an extra 20% basically by grading the papers out of 30 points but he only recorded up to 25 points in the grade book. I got a 25.5, so the extra 1/2 point i got will go towards my final!)

I am also happy to report that on my first philosophy essay of the semester that was based on Plato, Socrates, and the message that Plato was trying to say about democracy and the rights of the individual vs. society. He thought i had a pretty depressing view of democracy (lol) but he said my paper was very interesting so that was good. I like him a lot!

HOWEVER now i have come across a new problem.. I have found myself in a position with my marketing professor and marketing class thinking that marketing is really not the way for me to go, yet again, which makes me feel all blah. I really like my business courses, so for now, im going to continue taking business courses and probably keep marketing, but im totally going to research other options. I am become somewhat interested in International business.

My big problem that I am facing at this point, as writing my philosophy paper has shown me is.. I severely miss English and writing papers all the time. This to me says KRISTEN, YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN AN ENGLISH MAJOR YOU DUMMY. So this poses a problem for me.

Do I continue business marketing? do i drop business marketing and go for english completely and totally? Do i attempt to do a double major and go for business marketing and english? Should i major in marketing and minor in english? Or should I change my major to english and minor in marketing?..

All these questions are temporarily filling my head with insanity. For the simple fact i am getting far along with business despite only really being in my 2nd semester of actual business core courses, i will probably stick with marketing or business in some sense or form..

But it definitely poses lots of questions about where I am going to go from here.

I think a double major would be fun and would look good for me, but a minor would look decent as well which i always wanted to double major or have a major and a minor. It will definitely add to my schooling but it would give me a good background and i could choose to go further in my education with either or. I am just such a sucker because I love english, I love writing, i love being creative in the sense that i can start from a blank piece of paper and create something, like my philosophy essay.

Anybody have any thoughts?? they would totally be appreciated... <3 :-)

ill

I haven't been sick in a long time, but in the past few days, I have managed to develop an awful sore throat/cough/cold and down about 3 bottles of water in only a few hours which is unheard for me because i always have a heard time finishing one bottle. My poor system! I am at brett's right now currently waiting for him to wake up so he can take me home, ive got a ton of homework to do today and my mom is cooking turkey which makes me happy&& sad at the same time.. Ive been craving turkey forever but being sick now means i probably wont be able to enjoy its taste as much as normally :-(

Moving on to a different subject.. My classes are still going good. My new mini laptop needs the LCD screen replaced ALREADY which is super lame. it just randomly decided to shit the bed one day, i was so pissed! oh well, i have to send it out on monday and hopefully it wont take too long to get it back..

Professor ratings..

So, I am into my second week of classes and feel its a perfect time to share my teacher/class ratings on this delightful snow day that allowed me not to have accounting today :-)

1. Business Statistics with Bhisham Gupta, Tu/Th 10:00-11:35
If you recall, this is the class that i had to retake last semester because of stupid el taha. So far, the class seems a little be more controlled and ive definitely learned things in 3 classes with gupta that i didnt learn in el taha's class, like exact definitions and certain things like that. I am leanring more detailed information I would say. he has a much thicker accent i think though but i sit in the front (which is a plus for me) and we actually have incentive to pay attention in class because we dont have a confusing book of his notes already printed in front of us that we learn from. He writes all the informatino on the board and we copy it down and of course add additional notes as we see fit. Ive been doign the problems in the book (which he follows along wiht thank god) and have had a fairly easy time getting through them which is another plus. this is something i didnt do last semester.. but el taha didnt follow the book anyways so it was weird.l. OH DID I MENTION THIS PROFESSOR ACTUALLY TEACHES FROM THE BOOK?!?! YESSSSSSSSS

2. Introduction to Marketing with Warren Purdy, Tu/Th 11:45-1:00
This professor is pretty interesting. he can be a little intimidating, but its because he wants everyone to participate in conversations and such and I feel a little AHHG about that so. He is a really interesting professor though and this is the first class i have taken that is actually for my major!!! hooray for that, i am excited :-) The class is interesting, its basically just lecturing from powerpoint slides so far but hey im used to that and i dont mind that, its informative and i learn a lot i think.

3. Philosophy with Jason Read, Tu/Th 1:15-2:30
I love this class. This and marketing are probably my favorite classes. When he first walked in the room, I thought he was a student, I couldn't even believe it!! He is awesome though because he has ways of making silly little jokes about philosophy like when we read the apology and crito, (about socrates trial and plato trying to get socrates to break out of prison for those of you who dont know) theres a part where he asks us why socrates didnt want to live in exile, and my professor is like well he knew he couldnt go to sparta because theya re too busy yelling and doing crunches all the time because if you wear a cape and a speedo all the time you are gonna wanna look good!!! LOL IT WAS SO FUNNY i mean probably not as funny as it was coming from him and might be a have to be there moment but it was HILARIOUS. I love this professor, he makes philosophy interesting and i think i do like it beyond its complicated writing and such.

4. Accounting with Jeffrey Shields, Mo/We 11:45-1:00
This class is alright. Ive only had this class twice so far so i mean we havent really been able to get into accounting a whole lot, we did an exercise about factors that affect small businesses and the type of decisions they have to make but thats it. He seems like a nice enough guy. he is putting points on attending extracurricular actitivities basically because he wants us to get involved. blah, thats annoying but oh well, gotta do what you gotta do..

5. Linguistics with Dana ?? and Wayne Cowart, ONLINE
This class seems like it is going to be pretty eays. there are a lot of assignments but they are basically just a lot of reading and such. Basically like the load of a once a week class and everything is due sunday at midnight. so far i dont mind it, its kind of interestinggg :-P WE WILL SEE HOW THIS GOOOES

so thats my little professor overview.

On another note, things are going pretty well in life i guess. Lots of homework for most of my classes, or a lot of reading anyways. marketing, accounting, philosophy are all going to be a lot of reading, but for philosophy thats all there really is all semester besides essays. It will be nice to have a class i dont have to worry about studying for tests then again i havent had to write essays since like, UNE fall semester '07 so I may be a little rusty considering its been like over a year... I think I will be okay though, he is a nice teacher and his class is interesting enough. he makes it fun.

i am currently at bretts right now because i was goign to go to class from here btu since class was canceled ill probably jstu stay here again tonight since the weather isbad and go to class from here in the AM. woot woot!! Brett is still sleeping though, right next to me and i might need to wake him up soon to venture out into the snow with me to grab some snacks before the roads and everything get too horrid. hooray for 8-12, 9-15 more inches of snow.. just what i want... woot.. ;-) (i have heard both measurements, i hope its really not going to be 15 inches, if it is ill fucking cry so so hard! :-( UGH!!!)

ambitions, goals, desires..

So i have decided to cut out some things from my diet and i am sticking to it because boyfriend has to help me.

1. Only drinking water, going to cut soda out and try to drink only a little bit of milk. Tea is still allowed with an occasional hot chocolate.
2. Avoiding breads as much as possible along with pasta (which is extremely hard for me to do)
3. No red meat (i dont really eat red meat anyways i just think its icky..)
4. Basing my food intake on fresh fruits, veggies, nuts, salads, and cheerios, among a few other things.
5. No chips.

I'm hoping by summer I can change my eating habits and just have a healthier, more fitting lifestyle. I want to lose some weight, but its gotten to a point where I want more than to just lose weight for now, i want to keep it off and not feel guilty about what i eat.


Anyways, on to another note, lets change to a better tone.

Classes start tomorrow. I am taking:

• Managerial Accounting
• Business Statistics (retaking it because my grade wasnt good enough last semester.. balls..)
• Linguistics (online class)
  
• Philosophy
• Introduction to Marketing

Needless to say, I am super excited for everything almost, except business statistics... and if i have a good accounting professor, i should be good too.

I miss having an apartment. its just not the same.. i hate not being with brett all the time or knowing that he is just up the stairs if he isnt right there with me. it makes me so so sad :-(
I still see him all the time but i mean after knowing what its like to live with him it just isnt the same. Wish I could be with Foxy and my baby both at the same time.. its so hard not being able to be with both of them all the time. its going to be a lot harder once school starts back up because practically all my time is spent doing homework..' just to be able to see him and be around him im going to have to bring my homework to his house and work on it there which is better than not being wiht him at all but it still stinks we acnt just have time to be together.

By the way, our 2 year anniversary was on January 16, it was absolutely wonderful. and if we have made it together for 2 years, this obstacle will only test us and hopefully make our love stronger. I strongly believe we are at a point in our relationship now where we may have our disagreement slike always, but we will be okay in the long run and we will be better for it.

i love him with my whole heart.. in ways i never knew could possibly exist.. and its so nice for a change to know that he feels the same way, no matter how i look or act.. or what i say.. he loves ME for ME.. how could i possibly ask for anything more?.. he is everything i have always dreamed about and more.. <3

knitting 101

So knitting is what i do when im sitting in front of my tv with nothing else to do.

I went to ac moore today and bought a book about knitting and crocheting so i can learn some different patterns and hopefully make some pretty neat knitted things.. id love to make some cool things for foxy, that would be absolutely hilarious haha<3>

I also picked up a tote and some fabric to lline a tote bag for school and added a pouch for pens and pencils because the bag i have right now is a little old and is really dirty... and it has happy bunny on it and ive had it since i was like 16 (thank you alli chamberlain, it served me well!) but it is starting to get super dirty from over use :-(. I got a black tote bag and got a red based fabric with chinese symbols on it... below the symbols it says what the symbol means. The symbols are sideways in my bag becaues of the cut of the fabric but oh well, no one pays that much attention to it anyways i figure :-P. The pocket is right side up though.. LOL.

whatever man, its just for me and it works :-) i have to finish sewing in my lining but i have to go buy some black thread because i thought i had some.. but i didnt.. i used red thread on the rest of it but i dont want it to be visible where i sewed in my lining obviously!!!

havent seen brett much in the past couple of days.. hoping i can go see him tomorrow and spend a majority of the day/night with him..

ordered my books online for this semester today to pick up in the store.. at the same time, ive got to turn in my books from last semester as welll... WOOT WOOT.. HOW EXCITING.. at least i get a little bit of extra cash back in my pocket, yayaaa..

think im going to go look through my knitting book before calling it quits and heading to bed... <3

Happy 2009

Hope everyone had a great new years, mine was pretty decent, had a nice relaxing night with my baby!

So only a few large goals this year:
1) pass business statistics with an acceptable grade for business statistics
2) bring up my GPA
3) find a new apartment with brett
4) make/save $$$

thats pretty much it.. just gotta focus on the things i want and put all my energy there.

I've been feeling mighty creative lately and just want to keep making different crafty things. After i graduate school, i hope to eventually open my own little art boutique to sell my crafts and/or sell craft materials. I have been way into them lately!!! I want to take an intro to drawing course soon if possible from usm... lindsey took one and showed me her work and it was incredible, such an improvement from her first pieces to her last pieces, they were amazing!!

Speaking of Lindsey, she also taught me how to knit the other day which is actually fun.. its pretty relaxing. I want to start making purses but i gotta see if i can use my moms sewing machine and she said its not working super awesome right now because she has to fix it up. and oil it or something weird like that.

I want to start learning to do different things with knitting, but i suppose i should start with just a simple scarf or something haha i havent even finished one project that would also be a good idea. oh well, im too anxious and what not.. knitting is TIME CONSUMING!! great way to kill a lot of time pretty quick, can't lie.

I should probably start beading again, but its becoming a very expensive project and ive probably invested over $500 easily in the past few years, probably more like $1000 at this point.. if i didnt bead id probably have soo much more money lol. knitting is much cheaper but takes a lot more time.. i can finish a necklace in aboout a half hour at much higher costs, and knitting will take probably a week to a month depending on how often i work on everything.

WHICH EVERYTHING ELSE DEPENDS ON HOW I DO ON MY SCHOOL WORK AND IN CLASSES THIS NEXT SEMESTER. ugh. lawdy. so irritating.